Well my childhood has now officially been ripped away.

I'm not even an adult yet and I feel doomed to a life of dullness and unfulfilled dreams. I used to have passion and vigor for life and it's blessings and glory. Now all I feel is the weight of the impending adulthood on me. It's like I dread the future more and more every day because i'm getting more of a real sense of what it's like now. I'm worrying about college money for goodness sake I never worried about that before. I think when I turn 18 i'll just disappear through the internet. Like my grandma i'm not supposed to talk about did.

 

aint life grand

 

I'm sorry things are getting frusterating for you, darling.
I understand how it can be.
That's one reason I didn't go to college.
I wish, now, that I would have.
Because I wasn't interested in going to college, my grades in high school weren't too grand, and as a result, I'll have to pay my own way through whatever school it is I go to.
I'd like to go to Naropa University in Colorado, but I doubt that will happen.
I'll most likely end up going to some sort of trade school, like one that offers gunsmithing.

I hope that with time, things become easier on you, and you start to see that the stress is completely overcome by the pure pleasure and passion of the path we call life.

Bless you, my friend.

~Namaste~

 

Thanks. I know everything does eventually go well. It's just getting to the point it does. I just plan on throwing myself into my studies this year and talking to my parents and my guidance counselors a lot so they can help take a little of it away. I'm a huge perfectionist so i've pretty much accepted it's going to be a stressful process no matter what.

 

When I first had to deal with the realities of adulthood, college, and finances, I felt like my life had peaked, also. However, college made me more excited and happy about life than anything before that. Since college, times have been up and times have been down, but overwhemingly up. The responsibilities get greater with age, but so do the experiences.

This isn't the endd of your childhood. Childhood doesn't end unless you want it to. This is just a low spot in the cycle of life.

Cheers and good luck

 

dont worry, things always change.

 

I'm good at stressing out when I know there's no need to. I'm mostly worried about the whole money prospect of college.

 

When there are hard times like these you grow and mature in the best way...Be strong when it is necessary, but enjoy your childhood while you can, because once you grow up, there's no turning back, and nothing ever will be as it was.....
Good luck and I'm keeping fingers crossed for you!..

 

Aren't you 17?

Life hasn't even started yet homegirl. Cheer up.

 

Thanks you guys give me much more support than my mother did.
Me:Oh mom I feel that now i'm getting close to that age we should have a serious talk about college
*silence*
Meon't you?
Mother:Sure, but not right now i'm going to meet some friends.

 

Yes but there's choosing a school, actually figuring out what I want to do, then doing it. I don't want to be fighting hobos in a dark alleyway for soggy french fries in twenty years.

 

It's ok. I'm 19 and I did all of that and I'm still a child and pretty retarded.

18 is definatly not the turning point for maturity.

 

Your mom is probably scared of big changes that are ahead of you, like college (moving away maybe?), money issues which are never easy...Just give her time to think it through and she'll be ready to talk....

 

I'll be lucky if I have another turning point for maturity before i'm 75. I just feel as the only child of my parents actually going to a traditional four-year school*not that there's anything wrong with not my brother went to a one year school and is happier than ever now* and excelling is important.

 

I figured out what I wanted to do with my life at 22. I don't think a lot of people ever figure it out.

I have yet to fight for french fries since I've been old enough to work.

Theres lots of money out there for school homegirl. Don't feel down.

 

Yeah i'd thought she'd have adjusted to it when my older brother went away to Florida. He was only 17 at the time he moved. I have a brother starting college this year to. Only a tech school he'll be living at home. I'm worried about the money myself. She assures me it's no problem though.

 

The only person in your life who'll ever define excelling for you is yourself.

 

Well the french fry part is kind of a secret dream of mine. My mother assures me money is no problem so i'll trust her there. I'll have to take out loans though. I hate the idea of owing money to anyone.

 

Right now I'm paving my way through school without taking loans...it isn't fun but I think it'll be better in the long run.

 

i know exactly how you feel.....but its not that bad
once your 18, out of school with a job and a car you realise how free youv become....and then you quit your job and see how far across the country you can get with 600$ before calling your parents from the pay phone in front of albertsons two states away and getting yelled at for being gone for 4 days

once you do something truly independant of anyone else, you find a more refreshing and real passion and appreciation for life

and then your broke till you find another job