Holy Shit

Well, in that situation, I'd talk to her about it. If you talk to her about it in three weeks it will be even more a where the hell did that come from moment.

Sheryl Crow said it best, the first cut is the deepest.

 

cat's out of the bag...

 

did you tell her?

 

Im currently on the phone

 

No a cat literally jumped out of a bag.

 

very funny, asshole haha

 

I just had to clear it up.

There will be no cats OR bags here while Im on watch.

 

I just got hung up on.
I told I love her but I feel like we are best friends more than anything and I need to explore, I can't make a commitment to anyone at this time.
To which she said "I'll get you back and make this all better"
To which I said "No, even if we did get back together I would go crazy, that's not what I want" then she said "So, you don't want me to come home? Please tell me to come home and be your girlfriend again, please, please."
And I said nothing and she hung up. That did not go over well.

 

aww shit, bailey!
i'm sorry to hear that.
you should think of a big epic speech explaining everything so that she will feel better about the situation. :tongue:

 

I'm not one to say I toadaso.... But I toadaso, I fuckin atoadaso

Ok that was a joke (from a tv show) but that sucks.

Oh and you have to pronounce that a-toad-a-so or it wont make sense.

 

aww shit son

that sucks

i hate times like these...those

it's normally when i just get up and walk over to a chair, sit down heavily, and close my eyes for hours

 

The next time you get a chance to talk with her, you should explain the entire situation. It might make it seem less sudden.

 

Yeah, i don't know what i could say to make her feel better. But I need to be honest with her, and the truth isn't anything that will make her feel good. I need to stop worrying about hurting her though, thats what has kept me in this relationship for so long.

 

Fuck, I'm about to hop on a plane to NC so i can talk to her in person right now. That's probably a bad idea though

 

Yea, don't do that. I know what you mean by staying in a relationship because of the other person. When the day is over, you need to worry about how things affected you. It's not being selfish. It means you know that you are most important. I've always cared about my girlfriends and they felt the same way about taking care of yourself and what's best for you.

 

could be a little irrational, yes

 

Ha! No kidding!

 

you are exactly right. even if you try to make her feel better now, it's just gonna lead to worse hurting in the end. you gotta tell her how you truly feel and just get it over with.

i wish you the best stella

 

I'm ok, I'm ok. I just got wayyy more fuvcked up than expecting but I'm feeling ok
Thank you all for the love

 

Ok never mind. I am not in a good head space at all anymore, I might go to the hospital right now I cant quit shaking my muscles and all blackspotted