so i'm with a girl that i love very much and care for and she feels the same way towards me. this is my first long term relationship and after a lot of worrying and doubts i've decided that this is what i want while we are both making the transition towards adulthood. so last night i had a weird dream. the cool part was me and brittany (my girlfriend) were in the water standing on these crazy rocks that were cut like mt. rushmore except in the shape of the letters A B C. we were sitting there and she goes look and i see this crazy long skinny black catfish swimming by us. it looked crazy and its cool cuz im a leo (cat) and shes a pisces (fish)... anyway then as i started to get closer to waking up, when im usually really horny, the dream changed. in highschool i was in love with a close frend, a girl who is the classic heartbreaker, broke a few of my friends hearts and probly mine too if i'd ever been with her. i was stuck on her for a long time after high school and until brittany came along, i kind of thought she was the only one (i've since heard a bunch of my guy friends say the same thing). well, she was living in africa for the last year, and when she came back i thought it would be weird, but it really wasnt although she was all of a sudden giving me a lot of attention (probly cuz i wasn't). i was happy that everything seemed to be smoothing over. but then in my dream, after that cool experience with my girlfriend, i was going to meet up with her (the other girl) and i had this nagging feeling that we were going to have sex. and of course i was horny and still attracted to her, so i kinda wanted it. anyways it never happened and i woke up soon after that. i know its really no big deal, but i woke up feeling guilty, wondering what it meant... and then i had to go to work. and then i see my girlfriend and im all weirded out so im no fun to be around. its just like, when things seem to be going good and i'm finally getting into the groove with the whole relationship thing, i feel like some subcouncious bullshit sneaks up just to fuck with my head. and then i sit there and argue with myself over trivial bullshit trying to figure out what it means. i don't even feel that way towards her any more and i really love the girl i'm with now. i just feel that my past experiences plus the paranoid/perverted person i am just get in the way of paying attention a lot of the time. but i guess thats how love/life is, and luckily she cares about me enough to see me thru. ahhh fuck my brain, its too freakin complicated.... maybe its just that my life is actually way better than i think, so i make up things to freak out about any thoughts?
don't worry about it man. you can't help what you dream. just like you said..."trivial shit" don't feel guilty about this man...you had a dream that you might have sex with another girl. shit, you didn't even have the sex (in the dream or real life). and like you said, you don't have those feelings for her (the other girl) anymore. i'd say you are a pretty good bf, especially for feeling bad about this. don't worry, you're all good:cheers2:
Yeah man porkstock hit it spot on. You don't need to worry, a dream is a dream. Shit, ANYTHING can happen in a dream. I've had plenty of dreams where I was imagining having sex with another woman. I embraced it and enjoyed it for the time being! At the end of the day you just have to realize that dreams are just where your imagination runs free, and Brittany is the one you truly love, not some high school sweetheart! Stay strong brother.
