When I was eighteen, the life ahead seemed sprinkly clean. Little did I know, 9/11 would threaten my horizon. It would encapsulate my being in a new world filled with fear and dread. Where everyone looks to the skies and innocent people are shot dead. then I turned 19, and the massive destruction splayed it was across my 14'' tv screen. It was clear, I had left that old world behind and entered one where muslims were under siege and I was leaving my innocent teens. I was a glass collector working for a night club. I was on 4.00 an hour, not enough, but it was part time so what the fudd. I was at Uxbridge college, I made some friends, I got onto GCSE English, we started to read what Shakespeare had once said. Then the darkened days loomed ever closer, I left Uxbridge, to exist in a reality that was babylonious, but what we start from. I made that decision to move to Lewisham, oh how then I was so wrong. Now I am 26, I see now that an opportunity to exist in a somewhat better surrounding was finished. In my dreams at night, I quiver with horror, I shiver with fright. But on those hazy summer evenings by the river. I can still here the distant music of the 2000 Summer.We lived in primative days, we never saw the moment of change. The sun that turned blood red, the signs of recession and Labour dead. The feral youths seemed science fiction. THen when I look at it, it seems real, this is the situation. For my tears, I get nothing back. For my troubles, no ropes made slack. For every self injury, is simply a reminder. That day, when I become lighter, when I see and feel the change. The day when I can make a friend. The day when I can make amends. Lonely days, my mind enters a crazy world. I talk to the wall and make bizarre Ann noises. (EH EH EH). I feel the fear, the paranoia of this world I entered when I was so very young. Now I must start to change to make myself at one. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FA39yqwnX98
That was a good read J0hn...I kind of feel like my lifes just beginning all over again at the moment...for the journey:cheers2: Must say too your writing seems to have developed well since you started posting...did you get your GCSE? Have you done anything else with English, like a creative writing qualification or something? Might be useful to have, youre obviously a deep thinker
