I am starting to worry myself. I am really not happy right now...funny how quickly my moods can change, just a few days ago I was feeling so good about myself. I don't know what is going on in my head. I'm trying to quit smoking weed, and I think that plus some added shit is getting to me. Tonight I went to a dance party and some fucktard was trying to start stuff with me. I ended up walking away, knowing I should have just decked him out, that kind of made me feel real pissed and kinda killed any fun I was having. The girl I really like I haven't been able to really talk to in a few days, and I'm trying to make it a little longer. I shouldn't get so worked up on this girl when a relationship is only starting to show signs of occurrence. I suppose it's just that I haven't really had a girlfriend in years and I've never had like a real actual girlfriend ever. I need to slow down...maybe I should start smoking again, I don't know right now.
I remember your thread a few days ago. Your mood sure changes quickly. Are you actually with this girl ? In a relationship, I mean. If yes, how long ? Oh and dont start smoking. And yeah, stop smoking weed
No...I haven't progressed anything with the girl...and I think this is a big part of it. I'm frustrated with how I deal this situations. I am tired of how I've always been socially. I just feel really kind of empty...I mean, I feel like an individual completely, yet at the same time, I am struggling to be similar. And I know it sounds like every teenager's wet dream of problems, but it is really eating at me. I feel like I'm about to either change, or stay the same and just be ridiculously miserable with myself for another few years. I'm also really pissed off I didn't fight this kid. He could have been an exit for a lot of pent up anger I am now finding I have.
I'm thinking maybe this is just me coming down from a fairly frequent smoke routine. It's been a week since I last smoked and I'm just itching for something to occupy my head. Unfortunately that usually involves me taking any situation that IS on my head and blowing through it in several different scenarios. Is it possible it is just the weed?
Dont struggle to be similar. If you feel like an individual completly, you should just be content with yourself. I do feel ya though. I'm pretty happy with myslef. Its just that I feel I dont fit in very well. And if I changed, I'm pretty sure it'd make a lot of things easier. You're still 17 though. You're growing and changing. Dont think about it too much. Give yourself some time. And do what you feel like doing. I think my problems start when I think too much, which I tend to do pretty often. Oh and I dont know if its the weed, cause I've never ever done weed
You sound like you're socially awkward, and all you really want is to fit in. Do you feel sad on the days where you think you're not getting anywhere with this girl, and king of the world when you have a good time with her? That special someone can really fluctuate your emotions. you sound like you might be bi-polar, but I doubt you have the condition, I think it's the girl who's causing this (I'm not saying it's her fault or anything, she's just the catalyst).
Piaf, you are so cute. Purple, it might sound like every teenager's problem, but it is still your problem, and bothering you. It sounds silly, but sometimes exercise really helps. You just need to get out of your funk. Sweating and really working out tends to make me feel better when I am low or stressed or otherwise. And try not being so hard on yourself, and look at things from a different perspective. Go for a long run, do some boxing, dance around your bedroom til you fall over, something to get your blood flowing,
No shit... You guys are all help. Like that one guy said, it's all in my head. And jamaican, you are right. She really is just a catalyst for me to feel good or bad. I'm not really socially awkward, I just feel like I'm supposed to have a certain place or a niche, but I really don't want that. I've always been a real popular guy with everyone, never really had any enemies and I could hang with whoever, but for like 2 years I was just pretty much by myself. Now since I moved to a new school I'm like hanging with all the "cool" kids and I just feel that I'm leaving parts of me behind, even when I know I'm not. I'm still a nerdy, goofy guy, but it just feels like the people I hang around take me as a huge stoner. I don't really like that too much, because, yeah, I've smoked weed pretty frequently, but I still am a really smart person. It isn't even that serious though...I'm sure I'm just thinking that people are thinking this shit. I'm too inside my head... Angelina, I really do need to start exercising...I think I might get a gym membership soon. Piaf, just thanks a bunch. I'm going to make a middle-of-the-road feeling thread next. I just think I need to settle myself and realize I'm over analyzing too much of my life and I need to just let go.
yknow, i think theres ages that affect your mood. i was fucked-up and a nervous wreck a couple years ago. now i get down a lot, but not nervous anymore.. more like lethargic and negative. i cant wait for the age thatll get me happy all day every day, if it exists. maybe its the age of heroin.
^I agree, however for me, it seems I shift mood every few days. And it is starting to take its toll on my brain
well i wouldn't discount the weed entirely. it could have nothing to do with it but some people are affected badly by weed it's effect on the brain and it can fuck up your moods highs and lows.
