So i have been meditating successfully for about 4 months now, probably properly since i really changed my life quite drastically. But it seems that especially since i got sick about 3 weeks ago and subsequently my Yoga and Meditation practice suffered, I am having more and more difficulty getting even into the earlier stages of peace where my mind usually gives up. Its disconcerting as I don’t feel as connected to things as i used to, and haven’t been keeping my ego in check as well as I could have been. Its also difficult as this was all prefaced by an indescribable session of meditation where some truly awesome things happened for me. Does anyone have any advice, should i perhaps seek out someone to show me how all over again? Has anyone else had this happen before? Cheers Yai
Don't give up! Just wait and see if things improve in the future. If you still have difficulty, why not try a different technique? You can also try reading the spiritual works of a different teacher or guru.
Thanks... Disenchantment can be a difficult thing. Im not really reading the works of any teachers at the moment. I have been reading through the Srimad-Bhagavatam but its not only heavy read, I cant reconcile with the violence in it. Any recomendations?
Have you read anything by or about Ramana Maharshi? Many of his works are actually avialable for free on the internet. You can find them on a certain website devoted to him (use Google to find it).
After the enchantment, the disenchantment. As based in having had some sort of expectation. Which to undo this sort of thing one needs to approach meditation as more of a part of their daily routine. Benefits generally include being more aware which can lead to one responding to ones life with more sensitivity. And the increased ability to integrate and process experience. But meditation alone will not change ones life. It is ones life. I mean, what is life but a big meditation??? What else is there. So one does some sitting meditation and then during activity one is doing action meditation, one way or another. One wants to not get caught up in some sort of concentration on some state of mind, or on or against some part of oneself like ones ego. Learn to release thought, not control it. For liberation each thing needs to go where it must go. Release, not some better cage. Release.
I would also add that most everything in life (including life) is cyclic in nature. When the wave one is riding crashes on the shore, one needs merely paddle back out for the next wave.
