what do you do when someone you used to call your best friend wont even say hi to you anymore? (you can skip to the bottom, all this crap in the middle was for me to relieve some memories but your welcome to read it) so there was this girl i met freshmen year who recently moved to my neighborhood, and at first i thought that she was the type of girl who was used to getting all the guys. so i never bothered her because i was so shy. but as the year went on we hung out with the same group of people and i got to know her really well. we would msg each other about our lives, past and present. eventually, we started to call each other everyday sometimes talking until 2 in the morning. and needless to say, i began to develop feelings towards her. so as summer came around something horrible happened. my dad was diagnosed with a heart disease and i had one week in my hometown till i had to go to taiwan to stay with my grandparents during my fathers surgery. but that one week really cemented our relationship. we hugn out everyday, walking around our neighborhood in the morning and kickin it with other people at night. the day i left, she told me to walk over to her house so she could see me before i left. we sat in front of her house and just enjoyed each others company. before i left she gave me a long hug and promised that she'll always be there for me. and at that point i was truly convinced that she was one of the most important things to happen in my life. that summer everything changed, my family got into hella arguements, economically we wern't stable(in my dads pt of view), and we had to live with the fact that my dad was constantly in danger of heart failure. when i came back from taiwan i called up my friend immediately. i guess i could say i was happy to see her, but for some reason i couldnt talk to her like i used to. as time went on, she started to talk to me less and go to people she never talked to before. i started to miss her company but it seemed like she was avoiding me and i didnt know what i did wrong, so whenever she did choose to talk to me, i would just brush it off and answer her with short responses. i guess she just decided to stop talking to me, becuase the remainder of my sophmore year, we didnt hang out as frequently as we did before. i then met this girl online and she was going through similar problems as i was. my relationship with her soon became similar with that girl. she helped me build the confidence to talk to that girl again but when i tried. she would ignore me. now, i just finished my junior yr. im set to go into a decent college but i feel that i dont have that one person who could influence my life positively. i started to party a lot. drinking till i talked in slurs, and smoking. i guess i ruined my life, but it was an easy awy for me to escape the reality. (esp with the stress of junior yr) i then went out with one of my friends and it kept my mind off of the other girl for a while. however, eventually i became sick and tired of my gf. when iw as with her, i didnt havnt tht indescribable feeling of contentness and happyness, her habits were not always decent and she was too clingy. now i miss this girl, who used to be my best friend, and who used to keep me company even when things werent going my way well to make it short, what am i to do? i tried to make things right, but i think i screwed up by ignoring her initally. i really miss her. and im afraid to trust anyone else as much because of this. i know its probably the right thing to just forget abt her, and man up. but i just cant do it. i need closure =/ (if you read all of this, thanks a lot for taking the time, if not. thats fine too) -broken
I did read all that, and I feel for you. In my experience, you do need closure on this kind of thing. If I were you, I'd talk to her. Tell her how you feel, and apologize for ignoring her. That's what I'd do.
