I never have placed much faith in the mental health system, because I believe everything is wrong about it. I guess I have had Bipolar disorder since the age of 17 and I had repressed memories of being sexually molested as a young child, all the medication I was fucked up on never did help me out but just made me sick all the time, weed has been the only drug that has kept me sane the last four years. After I was "diagnosed" as being bipolar I ran away from home and found myself in Dallas, TX, I was starving to death and well a way to say it dying a madman at the bottom of a bottle, I was soon arrested down there and sent back to indiana and placed on a 72 hour suicide watch on a psychiatric ward then released back into my mothers custody. I have found the only way too say sane was being on the road, miles of emptiness. Its brutal mother earth seemed cruel and unforgiving, but she understood who I was,she wanted me to survive and learn, man or whatever name he goes by wanted me to twist in the wind, and wouldnt care if I was to die out there on the side of highway. I wish I could find myself a companion to head out on the road with me, but not too many people can even understand living that way. Id rather sleep on a ocean beach or deep in a mountain forest, to ecscape the system because its all wrong. Nobody looks up in the heavens anymore and apprecciates the beauty of a night sky, maybe thats why people drive nice cars and have lots of money those things can be reached while a distant galaxy can not be, well maybe to the shallow minded
im sorry man... i know how hard that must of been. i for one has thought about just roaming like a vagabond with no responsibilities; then retreating into the wilderness eventually to live in peace... i guess its just really hard to detach yourself from an old lifestyle and live with nothing then what you have on you. idk theres alot i could say about this but i dont feel like typing..
I don't think you're alone in wanting that kind of lifestyle. Keep finding what makes you happy and healthy and I bet you will attract the right kinds of people. Good luck!
I'm also bi-polar and have been sick of societies games and the culture here.I have been thinking for years and years of getting away and living on top of a mountain or something away from all the insanity of materialism and superficiality. I *just moved further upstate (further from the cities madness).I have much more responsibility but I love it.I have had no problem with the people here.I go about my business and let them go about theirs. I don't know if I could live on the road like that,there is no garuntee of food and shelter and there may never be someone to love.idk I mean I'm sure there are people who would love to join you on the road but for me I could'nt live with all the uncertainty of it all,(wish I could sometimes). I still look to the heavens with wonder and all nature and beauty.I could go on about it,for me it's all about love,always in one way or another. I wish you the best of luck. Hope you find what you're looking for on the road. Peace.
