Here I am drunk on my computer thinking about how fucked up my life's been in the past year, and its like that because there's no love in my life. I love that feeling man, you wake up and you have a girl on your mind first thing. You think about her in the shower and getting dressed and just can't wait to spend some time. I've basically gotten lazy because I got kicked out of this school where I was in love with this girl she was into me to and haven't seen her since, and Im slowly realizing I've been replacing all of the broken relationships in my life with drugs and music, but thats really not enough and it doesn't feel like enough. That chemistry man between another person and yourself is the most beautiful thing and thats all you need. Have I lost this forever? Anybody ever felt like this before? I used to get all the ladies, but this year I just lost a lot of confidence for a lot of different reasons and cant seem to get out of this. Any suggestions I feel stuck and I need somebody to love for real. Im definitely a shy person, and not a smooth talker because of some learning disabilities I have and it effects the way I communicate with females and I think this may be a big part of what's been getting in the way of me talking to the women that I like. Really I just need a reason to wake up in the morning besides getting fucked up. I need to be done with chemical substitutes for real things. Sorry for the ramble. Some suggestions on how this situation could be improved would really help. Love you all, Goofy
Well, you shouldn't base your happiness on people... Just because you don't have a gf doesn't mean you should not be happy or think your life and you are crap... You should want to wake up in the morning to live and explore, not because you have a gf. Sure I understand what you are saying, but it's not the sole purpose of living. If you want to date just go out and be yourself and talk to people, don't think your learning disabilities are standing in your way, you don't need to be a smooth talker to get dates or to meet people, all you can do is be yourself and if you are shy then just befriend and let things take it's course. Yeah, I am aware that this advice or what I am saying probably makes no sense but just know that happiness and contentment shouldn't be based on people. And all you can do is just be yourself, no gimmick, no facade, just you and meet people and live really. You are still young, you are 18 you will find someone, trust me...If you start thinking negatively about yourself and who you are, you will start to believe it, don't sit and dwell about yourself or your life and how you don't have a gf and it must be because of who you are and this and that, don't think those things! Just be positive, be happy that you are breathing and that there are millions of people out there and you will find someone, completeness doesn't mean you have to be with someone, it means you are complete within yourself. If you want to meet some ladies all you can do is go out and be goofydrummer and let it take off from there. Don't think of yourself or your life any less because you don't have a gf, a significant other doesn't define you as a person.. Good luck
I'm totally with you on the feeling a little bit alone. It goes on a long time for me, and I've gotten used to feeling alone. Some times are worse than others, but I always figure it'll get better. I totally am in the boat about having someone to be super stoked to hang out with all day. I can feel the whole wanting to hang with the girl of your fantasy or some shit, but just not being able to. Why can't you contact this girl that you liked? No reason to not go after her. It's comforting for myself to know that someone else is in a similar place as I am.
stacy lulu turned me into a newly castrated bitch. lol, what says I can't have a soft side underneath my layers of badassnes?
Thanks for the helpful response shroom. Gave me a lot of new insight into the situation. Also, the reason I am bored or unhappy isn't because I don't have a girlfriend. I was just thinking that a girlfriend could bring an end to the unhappiness, because from experience the best times in my life were when I had a girl to be pumped about, go to shows and dance with, get fucked up with, just chill with were the times i look back upon most fondly. Purp, glad I'm not alone on this, although Its too bad you have to be in this situation as well.
I understand, wasn't trying to insinuate that or anything... We all have those times in our lives that we wish we could live again and again and have life be like that instant that made us our happiest, but we can't.. We can move forward and create new memories and new happy times. Back-tracking and wishing times could be like they were will not make you feel too great about the present and make you feel like you will never have that feeling again.. But you will..(everyone is different, this is just my take and opinion, I am not saying you or anyone else feels this way).. If you are unhappy though a girlfriend or even anyone can't make you feel differently deep down, sure on the surface it may but inside it really won't... Being happy or unhappy has to do with only one person, yourself.. Though again this is just my take and opinion on what you posted.. Go out and just live life and know that you have yourself and better memories to make..
