a really scary experience...and questions to follow;

i've been tokin' and chokin' happily for almost 6 years now. never had a problem; sure, the occasional paranoia, munchies, or brain-fry, but never something like what happened to me last night. it was extremely frightening.

my friend and i smoked more than usual last night...and don't get me wrong, i've smoked blunt after blunt, and we smoked maybe only 4 little bowls. all of a sudden there was LITERALLY a splash of a vibrant scarlet red that splattered across my vision much like a blood splatter would, from the left where my friend was sitting. it's the only way i can describe it. it wasn't solid, textured, or very detailed; it was much like a blind spot you get in your visual field, in a very vibrant red shade. it was definitely a visual of some sort.

i don't know if it was that that set it off or if it was just the beginning of what happened to me. i suddenly felt the panic and fear you feel when you begin to think negative thoughts whilst tripping. take note, i have taken mushrooms a handful of times, as well as acid. i've taken some pretty amazing journeys. this is a source of concern for me in regards to this situation. once you open those doors, you CANNOT close them.

i sat forward and said my friend's name like i was distant (she knew something was wrong), trembling quite heavily, not feeling in control and afraid i was losing my mind. i almost wanted to ask her if she could hear me, or if she was there, but couldn't communicate. i kind of had trouble breathing, and got up and walked into the kitchen trying to escape the loud and overstimulating and overbearing television. the only time something like this happened is when i had to abort a trip on mushrooms, and then also, the tv had to be turned off. it was too much. i really felt like i was having a bad trip. this must of lasted only 2 or 3 minutes from what i can remember, at least severely. and there were NO psychedelics involved, just weed. this has never happened, no matter how high i am.

we sat there in silence and i kind of got a grip on myself. i trembled for about 5 minutes afterwards. i still felt strange, and slightly uncomfortable by what had happened, and on the brink of tears for about 10 or 15 minutes. then i felt very confused for the rest of the night, and still now. it was extremely frightening for that to happen so unexpectedly and without any warning, very abrupt. the feeling came back very briefly afterwards while my friend was telling me a story, and for some reason i began to think she was evil and was going to hurt me but i knew not to believe it. a red aura seemed to encompass a lot of things ever so slightly. i told her i was feeling badly again and that i needed a minute. i fought it off, but i am/was still very scared of what was/is happening to me.

i would like to think this was my very first panic and/or anxiety attack. although the visuals/hallucinations and strange thoughts make me worry otherwise. i really felt like i was under the influence of acid or mushrooms for those brief moments. i don't know if this is worth it to me anymore, i know that my mental health is not pristine as i suffer from depression amongst other mental quirks; have been for 8 years. i know i am probably prone to other things. this is not something i want to deal with often, or ever again. i don't need other things wrong with me, life is hard enough as it is.

i just wanted others' opinions, and perhaps maybe somebody here has gone through the same thing. sorry for such a lengthy post, and thank you for reading. just a scared young lady looking for some kind of clarity....

peace and love

 

sounds like a panic attack. i think alot of people are dealing with shit like this more and more(makes me wonder). myself included. so know ur not alone. youll be fine.

did ur friend smoke with you? did they have any effects like that? maybe its time you gotta take a break from weed. i strongly believe ur body and ur mind guides you along the right path in life. its up to you to listen and do the right thing. if ur geekin out too much on weed then maybe its time to stop and focus on something new. =)

 

yeah, my friend was totally fine, and so was i for the first few hours we were high. and then we smoked the last bowl and i guess that just pushed me over the edge or something...a few minutes after that it all just happened very abruptly.

 

I've had times when I've gotten back a fair bit of visuals just off weed. When you get it off weed it is FAR more uncomfortable than LSD or shrooms... but it is still just the same thing. All drugs are just different lenses of the same thing. Theres nothing to worry about. Just know, if you have good weed and smoke alot of it, under certain pretenses or intentions, you can get yourself into a subtle psychedellic mind state. But just remember, you can't die and it starts wearing off after 20 minutes.

If I get myself too high, I just meditate in a dark place. Sitting up does typically keep me feeling better. Or I draw, especially if visuals are coming back, it's almost like a reflex to me, that as soon as visuals start coming, the sketchpad comes out so I can capture them. Getting a visual onto paper makes me feel incredibly good about everything.

 

i diagnose you with 'fear'

once i had an experience that you accurately describe - but instead of red, the flash was blue and originated around my friend's jean's in my periferal, spreading like a vibrant blindspot into a large fan like shape (sort of like a mermaid's tail) before dissipating. it was an intense experience. but inherently there was no panic. panic needs just the slightest provocation to tumble out of proportion

 

i think you might wanna take abreak from weed, not because it's bad for you or because it made you bascily have a bad trip but because you need to clear your mind and find your center. you had some very very bad vide associated with you and i started feeling uncompfortable just reading that story. Find your center, go back to square one and try again (I mean chill out, just get your mind straight).

 

yea my friend eric had a weird experience the other day

we were sitting around waiting for some weed then all the sudden eric starts freaking out saying he is having blind spots and it was like a flashback but it wasnt

it lasted like 5 mins and went away

its some weird shit but im glad im reading about it now so i wont be so caught off guard if it happens to me