I'm going to be 24 in less than 2 months and I feel like my life is total chaos. My life is not yet what I thought it would be at this point and I am having trouble dealing with this. I feel alot of my turmoil comes from my personal relationships and my inner struggles to balance them. I have been emotionally sick for so long that it is starting to play on my physical health and I really just could use some guidance. I wonder if maybe you could give me another reading Old Crone, it's been quite a while since my last one and I've had a lot of life changes since. I would really appreciate it. Thanks sooo much!
Hi rollin, ... hope you don't mind if i share some thoughts I was 24 once and my life wasn't as i thought it would be, now i'm 39 and my life still isn't as i thought it would be ... but things happened nonetheless. Life gives us what we need to learn, but rarely (sometimes)what we want. I am constantly surrendering my expectations for what is. The more i surrender to what is, the more i can participate in the now, and the more fulfilling the experience is. If i'm not content with what is ... i can't be content at all. We ARE ALREADY in relationship with people. There is no begining and ending of relationships. Whether you are 'with someone' or not, you are still in relationship with them... because in truth we are not separate from others. It just sounds like you're trying too hard to fit an image of yourself and how your life should be. I get frustrated about it too but the more i just take what is given, without trying to control things ... life throws up some nice surprises sometimes and i start to realise the magic that can happen when i get out of my own way and let go of expectations. Expectations undermine what is really there and often lead to disappointment.
Wow RollinOn, that old liquidlight guy sure gives some damn good advice! I'm in complete agreement with what he said and have nothing to add, except that I feel your pain and I'm sending you love and healing warmth. Be good to yourself.
