Accepting your gayness

Alright, so lately Ive been accepting the fact that I am gay, however, I still feel weird about it. Just the fact that "I am gay" weirds me out, and some other gay things as well. sometimes I feel like gay sex is gross and whatever, although I love gay porn, guys are fucking hot, and the vag is a no no.

Is this normal?

 

I don't know if this relates but at first I felt the same way about being a transsexual. Its just because we're not the "norm" of society, so of course you'll feel like your weird at first. Don't worry, your not weird just yourself. You'll become more comfortable in your own skin as you go along. (I had to come out as transsexual and lesbian so double whammy of adjustment) but as long as your being true to yourself you'll fall into your groove. Hope this makes sense...

Alice

 

I agree with the chick

 

I can totally see why you would be weirded out by the fact that you are gay. A lot of society tells us it's wrong, and unnatural. They're wrong of course, but it doesn't lessen the anxiety or sometimes even shame we feel from not being "normal." Just know this, you are who you are, nothing you can do will change that. It's better to just accept yourself. I've had some trouble with it in the past, and found that it's just easier to be who you are and not worry about what others think of you.

 

Well said LJDV!I totally agree.Just be yourself;you KNOW what feels right deep down inside.

 

I grew up strictly Baptist in a Mexican-machismo culture. And for alot of my childhood I truly believed in the Church's preachings. so when i first started to question my sexuality i would cry myself to bed every night praying for God to make me straight. I would force myself to fantasize about women. but it wouldn't work unless i fantasized about a guy with the girl too.
I did everything I could to stay straight, at a bookstore i found a playboy in the bathroom and in it were some shoots that included a guy, and for about 2 years those were the only pics that could make me cum.
I didn't accept myself until senior year of high school, oddly enough i came out roughly the same time as my best friend so that helped. we didn't lose any friends. while i was at university i was president of the glbt group for two years because i wanted other people who grew up the way i did to know they weren't alone.
none of us are.

 

Well I know exactly what you are going through for I am in the same place. I watch gay porn a lot, but at times it gross me out too. but I think it comes with time to get used to it. I still think it is weird to say "I am gay" but i think it gets easier when people knwo who you are and then its easier for you to accept it aswell... even one person helps

 

For awhile I was like that too, but you just come to terms with it. You just have to remind yourself that you're gay as much as society tries to say you're straight. Well, it worked for me anyways.

 

I found it a whole different story after 30.

Past 30 the difference between gay and straight really becomes apparent.

Now, I feel like any straight person can say whatever they want, the stress involved with hetero/breeding looks unbearable, makes most of them miserable and frustrated zombies with no time to look after themselves

Under 30 i didnt hang out with some straight people cos they were idiots, over 30, most of them make me cringe

 

I agree.

 

I felt a bit weird about it too.. you just have to give it time and you will eventually be accepting to the whole thing... took a long time for me to accept it but i'm glad I finally did