i need help. i don't know what's wrong with me.. i can't do anything anymore everagain. i don't want to. i really want to just die and see what happens... everything is so extremely overwhelming.. i'm not depressed i'm way past that, i'm... dying? i just don't know. going crazy?
maybe something is going on in your life that is causing you to feel this way? if you wanna chat you can pm me or msn me.
why not live and see what happens. surely more positive things are likely to come from life than death. nice sig pic by the way
i get that way alot...i just get sick of dealing with shit..and just don't want to do anything. I guess we both have to stop feeling sorry for ourselves and fucking do something about it...that's the hard part though.
i know... i keep giving myself logical advice.. but there's just too much shit to deal with. i'm doing OK in college.. i have tons of work for that but it keeps my mind off of other things.. i hate my job.. my boyfriend is gone right now but even when he's aound i don't know if he wants me.. my friends don't call me back..i feel like moving to cali and dying.
i too am fucked up... and i don't want to say some cliche to you because whenever someone says one to me it makes me want to rip their throat out. anyways... i would love to be able to offer you some advice from my experience but i am in a really difficult place myself. mr migu is right, live. ten to one it will improve. look at it this way it can't get any worse. if you need to talk i''ll listen. stay cool, morna
Yeh im fucked up too! join the gang. thing is i feel sooo empty and depressed at the moment, yet theres nothing going wrong in my life at the moment :s tis weird.
I want to respond to this but I have to go bring my son to school. When I come home I will write back. Hang in there. There are a lot of good people here. Someone will make you smile soon.
Where do you want to be right now? What do you want to be doing? Never forget about tomorrow- it will always be there. Whenever I get pissed off in this house, while everyone is slamming doors and yelling and refusing to go to rehab, I think about the day when I'll be gone, when I'll have my own place out in the country with the man I love, and all of our children, and I'll be happy. You can't see the rainbow until after the rain
it sucks that youre so depressed, but from what youve said, those sound like the same problems everyone has at some point or another. ive gotten through that before and so have most people. just give it time.
well we have something else in common. My boyfriend is in Korea..in the army. He doesn't know if he'll get to visit before his term is up in May...That's a long time away. I'm hesitant to become roomates or take a serious job because i'll be leaving it all when he comes back...that's if he wants to stay in the US, because he might want me to move to korea w/ him for another year so he can stay out of iraq. just being away from him is tearing me up, but not knowing our future is even worse! i hate it. and i love him too much to just let it go...because he is my future. i havent beent to college since my first semester last fall..i failed half my classes...so you're doing better than me at that...i dont even have a car right now. i work a shitty part time job...i have nothing to show for it. but we're all blessed still. at least we're not starving in some shitty slum, drinking piss water...that would suck.
yeah.. everything i'm going through, i know someone's been there probably ten times worse. i don't know. today was actually OK.. i mean, i kinda hyperventilated(sp) last night and so today i was just kind of numb. i don't want to even think i'm (clinically)depressed again because i thought i had sorted that all out in therapy.. i knew college would be hard work, but i had no idea about the harsh emotional aspects..
I was 18 when I first seeked medical treatment for depression. I had counseling when I was younger but I wasn't on medication back then. Today I am almost 31 and I have been off/on medication and have gone to therapy. I have been more off the meds than on, currently not on. I only go to therapy when things get really bad for me. It never takes long either for me to snap out of it once I have talked to someone and gotten some fresh perspectives. Depressions sucks. It's really hard sometimes to get through it while I am home all the time with my lil' boys HOWEVER now when I get down I fight twice as hard to get out of it. I have to. I don't want my boys to suffer because I am suffering. I can't stand to feel like that. I wasn't motivated at 18 like I am now. One thing I would suggest is not to rule out the therapy entirely. If it helped you before you might just need a refresher course, so to speak. I have found that helps me. Have you ever tried medication for your depression? I am not saying that is the answer. In fact right now my answer is running/walking on my treadmill and changing my eating habits. I think I operate much healthier when I eliminate some of the high carbs. If you ever need to talk pm me anytime. I wish you well with this. Nice to meet you btw.
ignore the retard telling you to smoke pot. Will not fix things, only make them worse. OK -now depression. Unable to do anything but curl up in a ball and stare into space all day? Can't eat? Want to die? I've been there and I made it through, and if you are truely willing to beat this, then you will. Depression is a illness that often doesnt go in one short snap. It can occur and reoccur over someones lifetime many times. The trick is to take each day as it comes, get the help that works for you each time and dont look much at the big picture. Focus on small goals every day. Look for the light within yourself.
