so i dated this guy for 2 years. he has an older brother that ive had the biggest crush on since i met him a year ago. i told my best friend about it but no one else, b/c obviously that wouldnt be the smartest thing to do. anyway, things got really bad between me and my boyfriend, he started telling me all these terrible things like i was boring and never wanted to do anything fun and that he was "in love with my memory". thing is, while we were dating, i was diagnosed as bipolar and yes i went crazy for a while and all that, but he never said anything bad about it until now. so one night, he got so mad and screamed at me and i couldnt take it anymore so i told him that i was outta there. and i was all bummed out and crying and his brother called me to see what was going on and he asked why i was crying. so i told him that i broke up with his brother and he told me to come to his house to talk about it. so like an idiot, i did. and i told him everything, that i liked him and all that. so we are sitting on his couch and he's huggin me and it just happened, he kisses me. i was like WHAAAAAAT?! so things lead on and we end up having sex. insane i know. but it was awesome. seriously made me feel so good. so he tells me that he has liked me and all this and we start "talking". not dating but we arent dating anyone else. i dunno, pretty fucked up. so it has to be this huge secret b/c if my ex found out, i would die. he would seriously kill me. and his brother for that matter. but the best part of it all is that im 20 years old and the brother (my boy toy haha) is 33. he makes me happy so whatever. hahaha. IS THIS A BAD THING?!
