she had complete control over me.i never got to see her,that was totally my fault.i was in love with her.i cannot find her anymore.she threw me away like a piece of garbage..and it still hurts...so i say..this pain is bearable..but seems to be everlasting..i will never have any regrets for having know her...most of what i write is sensless but i hope some of it makes sense
its all part of growin up dude- couldn't have the best feelings in life without the worsts... those are just the situations that bring them up its cool- im still growin up too
oh and just think- if your heart hurts this bad now, think about how amazing it will feel at its highest points- and look forward to that
Good Grief, your 58 and writing this about that.. seriously man, your post isn't making much sense.. I don't understand what you are needing. If your just releasing, that's cool, but if your are needing something, you need to give a little more info then what you posted..at you age you should already know the answers to "love on the internet" I do hope you find peace. Bright Blessings sh
for that was very honest..the world is full of people who dont fully understand what they need..so they seek..how else can they grow..i am not a pro at "love on the internet"..you should be able to tell that from the senselessness...i think you are a good person(1st impression)
shameless_heifer is a wonderful woman. When I used to visit these forums frequently she helped me through many problems. She has much wisdom to share. As for your problem 10000 lighr years, I feel for you. I've gone through the exact same thing before. It can be very hard. And, all I can say is...this too will pass.
there is nothing you said that is not completly honest..i was seeking a higher love and i will never cease..positive attracts negative..you must feel both as you say..a friend once told about an anology on life itself..defined in such a beautiful phrase..electrophlic aromatic substitution..............when you become to positive you are a powerful attraction for the negative....end result is it all evens out...onward thru the fog..quote='[think]highlive[free];4451190']its all part of growin up dude- couldn't have the best feelings in life without the worsts... those are just the situations that bring them up its cool- im still growin up too [/quote]
In my opinion love on the internet is not sure/confirmed before you've met in person. So until then you shouldn't loose your head and completely follow your heart.
I did not want to come off as thoughtless, or cold. I thought you were just fucking with us. I have been on the 'net' for 11 yrs. I have some very close friends come out of here (the net). But I have yet to see a lasting Love relationship manifest.. ohh I have seen lovers and cheaters and down right players just tryin' to get laid, but very seldom will you find genuine LOVE LOVE LOVE. Usually it's right under your nose, paitencly waiting in your own backyard. Ppl play games.. emotional games that can cause sadness to ones heart. There are triffilin ho's (male n female) that have nothing better to do with their time, then to play with ppls emotions. They get a kick outta it. A power trip.. you can only get hurt if you leave yourself open to it. Loneliness is a cruel bedfellow and will justify the end result with desprate means of action, like falling in the trap of decite that vails the eyes and pierces the heart. I did not mean to judge you, I was mearly pointing out that at your age you should be a little wiser, cautious about giving your power to someone on the internet that you do not know. I'm sorry that you are hurting, we all suffer through learning. Each of us have lost at Love, only to Love again. It's about growth inside ourselves that will get us through the heartbreak of lost love. When we have a set back, we gotta shake it off, stand up dust off the negitive and carry on about our life. Think yourself a sparklin' gem, as the light passes through you, it makes a kelidiscope of pretty patterns as it expoldes in it's center and passes through, leaving a trail of Light n Beauty, illuminating the world with it's sparkle that is created within you.. If you become harded and shut yourself off, you become the rock, where nothing enters or leaves, is just hard n cold trapped inside itself. If you appear to be weak and are limping around, you will surely be devoured. Stand strong my brother, do not let the experience/lessons of life go unheard. Listen to what the lesson was in this matter of the heart. It's just a thing, and as (little brother) has said.. All Things Pass, and this too shall pass. " If your going through Hell, keep on moving, don't look back, if your scared don't show it, and ya might get out before the devil even knows your there." So don't hold onto this, do not own it or let it own you.. let it go, get youself free of it. Only you control you, no one else. We are here holding the rope to pull you up out of that hole your digging yourself deeper into.. throw that shovel down and grab the rope!
from what i've seen posted here, it sounds like you met someone on the net, developed an online relationship, she wanted to take it into real life but you didn't. so she stopped contact with you. who was trifling with who?
you hit the nail right on the head..she had me totally wrapped and i blew it just as you described..man i miss ..are you a genius or something????you win the 64000 dollar question!!!quote=Lady of the Freaks;4466517]from what i've seen posted here, it sounds like you met someone on the net, developed an online relationship, she wanted to take it into real life but you didn't. so she stopped contact with you. who was trifling with who?[/quote]
you have made me feel better.maybe i came off somewhat like totally destroyed.that is not the case..life has been lucrative..i will never grow up and iwill never become come crusted and hard..i can take the hurt when it is my time to endure..i never thought you were slamming me..and after all you at least aknowledged my feelings..i remain defenseless forever...i dont need a shield..let it roll across the floor thru the hall and out the door.. may your live long and prosper.......ote=shameless_heifer;4466349]I did not want to come off as thoughtless, or cold. I thought you were just fucking with us. I have been on the 'net' for 11 yrs. I have some very close friends come out of here (the net). But I have yet to see a lasting Love relationship manifest.. ohh I have seen lovers and cheaters and down right players just tryin' to get laid, but very seldom will you find genuine LOVE LOVE LOVE. Usually it's right under your nose, paitencly waiting in your own backyard. Ppl play games.. emotional games that can cause sadness to ones heart. There are triffilin ho's (male n female) that have nothing better to do with their time, then to play with ppls emotions. They get a kick outta it. A power trip.. you can only get hurt if you leave yourself open to it. Loneliness is a cruel bedfellow and will justify the end result with desprate means of action, like falling in the trap of decite that vails the eyes and pierces the heart. I did not mean to judge you, I was mearly pointing out that at your age you should be a little wiser, cautious about giving your power to someone on the internet that you do not know. I'm sorry that you are hurting, we all suffer through learning. Each of us have lost at Love, only to Love again. It's about growth inside ourselves that will get us through the heartbreak of lost love. When we have a set back, we gotta shake it off, stand up dust off the negitive and carry on about our life. Think yourself a sparklin' gem, as the light passes through you, it makes a kelidiscope of pretty patterns as it expoldes in it's center and passes through, leaving a trail of Light n Beauty, illuminating the world with it's sparkle that is created within you.. If you become harded and shut yourself off, you become the rock, where nothing enters or leaves, is just hard n cold trapped inside itself. If you appear to be weak and are limping around, you will surely be devoured. Stand strong my brother, do not let the experience/lessons of life go unheard. Listen to what the lesson was in this matter of the heart. It's just a thing, and as (little brother) has said.. All Things Pass, and this too shall pass. " If your going through Hell, keep on moving, don't look back, if your scared don't show it, and ya might get out before the devil even knows your there." So don't hold onto this, do not own it or let it own you.. let it go, get youself free of it. Only you control you, no one else. We are here holding the rope to pull you up out of that hole your digging yourself deeper into.. throw that shovel down and grab the rope![/quote]
HURT..MAN QUIT DOIN THAT..YOUR GONNA GET A BAD HEADACHE[quhursote=Asmodean;4455979]In my opinion love on the internet is not sure/confirmed before you've met in person. So until then you shouldn'e your head and completely follow your heart.[/quote]
