Well this dream was today: Basically i was at a ..event of sorts a party club event. And my ex- was there and we hate each other...more hate on his part then mine. And anyways so somehow we were glaring each other whole party and then somehow we pass each other or something and it's like...all that hate and frustration for each other melts and we have the best make out session ever like we are lovers who hadnt seen each other in years...but then we have to part and he goes with i guess some girl he was with that night and i go off with my friends but its like a ...we're both dissappointed that we have to go back to our real lives. Im not really sure what that might mean besides that i miss him, however he's an ex- from awhile back, since him ive been with other people and even had a long relationship now im single again. But i did wake up with realization why he's such a jerk..and its because i hurt him bad, i did something bad and i understand now why he had to be a such a jerk to me, besides protecting himself its something he had to do. another factor is ive had a slump in guys and the night i had this dream i had been just sleeping at a guys house but i left at 4am and stuff and im not into this guy just i dont know. so idk. but my other dreams have been realllyyyy gory and creative. 1. i was driving on a freeway in a 18 wheeler and a motorcyclist gets in a huge wreck and theres body parts, guts and blood everywhere. 2.I had a dream i was in a vet. program and we were going to do a dissection of a dog and we walk up as a class and theres this guy on the table and apparently he was a prisoner and he was going to executed for whatever he did and we would do the dissection on him. What was weird about all this was it was outside like the sky was red and everything was very decrepid looking, the mans son was also there he was about 5 years old and crying it was weird. So the son goes and says bye to the dad whos stapped down on this table and the sun is like on him hugging him and he has to be pulled off because this cover like this is coming down on the man. The cover finally comes and all of sudden bullets start shooting from inside the cover and it comes up and the man is full of holes and blood just gushes out of them. I woke up like sweaty and in shock like it was sooo real and i was just watching this and the class was like it was normal. I had no idea what that one was about. 3. i had another dream wherei was driving by a car and the people in there were bloody and dead. I have alot of apocolyptic dreams as well for some reason. any idea on these????
This dream of your ex ... reminds me of a bad breakup with a woman i loved. We argued because of petty jealousys and insecuritys and nearly came to blows. Her love turned to hate, and i hated her hating me, ... it was soul destroying. I was so hurt and spent a long time trying to clear my anger and understand that ego can swallow us up and consume us and we become lost to eachother ... and yet deep underneath where the truth still shines, we are still in love and as one. Anyway after the breakup she stonewalled me and wouldn't let me talk to her ... she construed my few attempts at communication as 'stalking' or 'pestering' and i got a solicitors letter and physical threats over the next year. While she remained in her ego, and aggressive stance, my own ego began to give way and i realised all this ego stuff ... people stuck in their dramas and unable to find peace together. ... a never ending war of retribution. So the dreams of her after that breakup were difficult, fiesty with a lot of tension, we were 'cautious' of eachother and not talking. The more i understood about ego and all this mind trip stuff and my whole attitude towards her changed and i realised i shouldn't be taking it all so personally ... it could have been anyone, a tragic misunderstanding. As these things became a stonger part of my understanding, my dreams of her changed and we became lovers again, ..together again in understanding and compassion. So as my inner landscape changed, the way i viewed the relationship changed also ...sadly she didn't come to the understanding that i did ... it a very deep understanding after all .. and i had to let go of her and our war/hatred. I know who she really is even if she doesn't and that makes it ok. It's a shame though, ..i still consider her a soul mate and would happily talk to her if she were willing ... if she could only understand me. Anyway i think your dream reflects your inner landscape and shows your changing attitude towards this guy ...it sounds like you are coming to a deeper understanding
When people are trapped in their thoughts and morals, beliefs and paranoias, fears desires ect It's simply damned hard to break out of it and clear all the crap between two people ... the illusion between two people. Alot of what we think about people we just make up in our imagination without checking with ourselves if it's actually real or not and our view becomes tainted. Everyone needs a reality check It sounds like you actually love this guy and have been working through all the crap to find some peace with it. But when i say 'love this guy' i'm not talking romantic/physical, you/me kind of love ... i mean just love... understanding, truth, compassion, oneness.
I'm sorry, but this is just someone you have feelings for, have a drama-filled history with, think about often, so naturally he appeared in a dream of yours. People like to romanticize dreams, but the reality is that your sub-conscious likes to romanticize your reality, which is that you have an ex whom you still have feelings for and there is hatred/tension between you two. This situation is a perfect breeding ground for human drama, which if left unchecked, your racing mind will do anything it can to perpetuate in your life. You guys broke up, and for a reason, not to mention that you said that you have had hatred between eachother. Don't go ask a bunch of hippies on the internet to convince you to contact (create drama with) an ex, especially one with whom you had a nasty break-up. The only exception I think would be if you've become significantly more spiritually developed and awake since then, and honestly, sincerely believe it could be a good thing. Just be aware of all of the desires that pop up in your head during your life, and hold all of them under the closest of scrutiny and question why/from where they came and if it's really the real you talking or the mental constructs(little voices) that we are all born with and can learn to recognise and over come.
