personality changes

so well grr. i guess i knew i was an alternating person. i am popper and many other people. i just got off the phone to the girlfriend. she knows about all the drugs i did. and she says shit now about my sentense structure, about talking about one thing and completly changing things i talk about, and im popper one day and somone else the next day and so on. she said every 2 weeks i change complelty. while still remaining with the same good morals. but she said she'll allways love me, but like isnt it harder to love me if im always a different person. shes like i guess so.
i had an idea that im weird and differnt, but not to this extent.

its like id see her one day and be in one perspective. and see her another and it would be like i just met her and id be differnt, and it just gets all mundled and muddled up and when i see her im in a different state. if i havent seen her in a like 2 days its like i have to re-learn about who she is and how i interact with her.
so there you go, carefull with the acid. it has effects on relationships, and i havent done it in months, nor any drug really, just a lapse once or twice of other shit.

so thats scary cause rapid change in thought patterns and speech is a sign of being skitz. tho i dont think so.many things happen in this world. well hey, at least i didnt turn crazy, huh man. who am i talkin too? im talking to you man, from the past, hah, hey popper, i wrote this directly to you to read in the future, you will flashback to this moment in time when you read this at my desired time in the future, ou wont know when. im not craazy

 

wow.

 

its like the pumpkins say "and the night mare rides on"

 

well put it this way popper, atleast u guys wont get tired of each other, right? cause i know a lot of people in relationships where they get sick of each other cause they know too much about each other.

and everyone is crazy, i thought u'd know that by now after tripping...

 

how many times u dosed popper

 

Not enough, apparently haha

 

funny, but true.

 

um popper....that last little bit was intentional right?

 

lol that last bits so funny

 

XD What I typed there could be funny in several way, depending on who is absorbing the post haha

 

haha wow is right. um. just hang in there popper. think positive.

 

well i woke up this morning thinkning wtf. making me question my identity. so i messaged her this

"and farrkkk...i stand by who i am as a person n' if you dont like it you can leave. and the times iv gotten angry at you iv had every right to get angry at you".

she responded with initially a msg saying good plus other shit.
then a good response

"I love u, only u, everything about u...all your quirks. thinking about what i said about them, i was rong to say those things, it was rong saying those things, i love them cause thats what serparates u from other people and thats what i fell in love with, with you and the hole 9 yards. im sorry for what i said, forgive me?

hehe

 

if i remember correctly, it takes like 3 or 4 years to kinda get full control of your mind back after dosing. where most people go wrong is the panic before the 4 years is up, then they start believin theyre crazy, then they become crazy.

 

yeah. its easy to get caught up in the spectacular lsd trip. but it has alot of consequences. it really does do things to yeah, and doesnt take really that many trips. so doing 100-200 pills would probably be better than doing 50 hits. mind you i done at least both. so that that distorts the results. so really there is no conclusion.
and if it takes that long to get back than really lsd is pretty risky drug to take. well thats true cause i know alot of people who do alot of hard drugs but wont dare go near acid.
that one acid trip and your down the path of the spectuclar jorney until your twisted. hmm unless you have control and dont take shit loadds. i dnot even know what im on about. meh

 

ur crazy. only dumbasses eat pills.

 

I think you're having woman problems, not mental or drug problems.

 

yeah pills are shit. me and my friend both have problems gettin it up. hmmm
so hes buying some of my viagra script... haha
but i dont even need that stuff anymore, its pretty good. with these herbal products. but yeah, E's do infact do things to your wang. thats a reason for me to never touch another E again, little own the rest.

 

some of us already know that poppers current condition is due to the excessive use of many drugs and should in no way be attributed to his lsd use when it is more likely that the meth or ecstasy was the real the problem!

in the end you really only have yourself to blame.

i have had hundreds of trips over the past 11 years and done lots of other drugs as well. in the work place i am considered to be one of the best, recognized by management as an employee with great potential. this is in a work place with over 500 employees. i work in customer service where cognitive thought process and communication skills are vital.

 

customer service are you serious... thats fucking easy as piss. i work part time at a 5 star asian cousine restaurant, serving food and beverages... i run like a motherfucker, all while studdyin justice at college to be a copper next year...
i worked my job for 4 years now thro all the drugs i have taken, and am considered the best drink staff they have.

iv been standing in the bar at work in some pretty crazy states of concousness, thinking how can i be experienceing this, if somone else was to suddenly be in my conscouness they would have to be taken to hospital. but i could still run around and serve drinks. id have flashbacks while asking the customers what drinks they wanted, suddenly everything would go all fast and distant. id answer the ringing telephone and suddenly be lost have no idea what is goin on and stumble on the phone. all while sober.
but its surprising what you can do.

but shit you know thats all good now.

 

care to share any info with how much/how often you tripped? and at what dose?

because it seems like if you are smart about things lsd really won't mess you up.