i used to use ecstasy pretty regularly. i never abused it, but i have definitely done more than your average bear. over the past year i've been falling into a black hole. i've been on prozac for a few months now and it has helped a lot. i was almost constantly suicidal; now i'm regaining enthusiasm for life. i've gotten to a good dose and could potentially stay on it for a while. but ecstasy has done more for my mental, spiritual, physical, and emotional health than almost anything else i've experienced, and i can't imagine a life without it. the truly happiest times in my life have been in the ecstasy glow, that sometimes lasts months. i've had anxiety and depression for most of my life, and have always been pretty responsible with ecstasy, so i don't think it had anything to do with my depression. i'm not sure whether my problem is more chemical or existential. if it's existential, using ecstasy more in the future would help. if it's chemical, and if i have to come off of prozac to safely use it, ecstasy probably wouldn't help. so i have a few questions... i've tried to do some of my own research but can't come up with any concrete answers. is it safe to take pure mdma when on an SSRI antidepressant or not? do any of you have any experience taking ecstasy while on an SSRI? what happened? have any of you ecstasy users been on an antidepressant and come off of it without falling back into depression? and just for fun discussion... do you think that most (or all) depression is primarily something pyschological that we can work through, or something biological that we have to learn to manage through physical means? and anything else anyone has to share about ecstasy and depression or antidepressants would be helpful. i'm a raver... so i just cannot envision my future not including at least a few more rolls.
I feel the same as you. I don't think using MDMA makes you more depressed, because I used to be more depressed as a kid than I am now. I used to get what I call "black hole" depression because I felt depressed no matter what was going on in my life. Food and sex disgusted me, and I would think to myself, "Even if I was rich and married to Johnny Depp I wouldn't be happy." Needless to say, that's not normal. I think that type of depression is chemical. But now that I'm an adult, I only seem to be depressed when things aren't going my way, which is a lot, unfortunately. I am in debt and can't find a decent boyfriend, even though everyone says I am gorgeous and can have any man I want. There just doesn't seem to be any good ones around here. As for antidepressants, I tried 3 different ones but I was only able to take one of each and no more, because of how they made me feel. I felt very weird, thoughts racing, couldn't sleep at night, and couldn't orgasm. Not a good time. So I guess they just don't work for me. As for taking ecstasy when you're on an antidepressant, I can only go by what I've heard, and that is: ecstasy doesn't work when you're taking an antidepressant. You just won't feel the euphoric effects. That would suck. Now maybe this doesn't happen for everyone, but it's what I've heard happen to others. I too can't imagine going the rest of my life without ecstasy. It makes me feel better just knowing that there is something to make me completely happy, even if just for a few hours. I swear, even if I was suicidal, I would stay alive just to take it if I had some to take. That's my problem. I haven't been able to find it in a year, and it's making me VERY frustrated, pissed off, and just plain sad. No good men and no good x, I really need to move, don't I? So count yourself lucky that you can even find the good stuff. Good luck with everything. Most likely your depression will go away after a while, and hopefully you won't even need to take antidepressants. They really need to let depressed people like you and me take MDMA legally. It seems they would rather we suffer than be happy, the stupid assholes.
not exactly on topic, but im prescribed wellbutrin and i always seem to roll harder than my friends and even girlfriend whos 30lbs less than me, maybe something to do with bupropion being a phenlythalamine(sp.) just like Methlene-Dioxy-MethAmphetmaine...
