this is goodbye

i bid u all a farewell, iam leaveing, wont be coming back, its nothing u guys did, its life in genreal, iam sick of it, sick of all this torment and pain, i wish no one had this pain that iam going through, so iam going to say goodbye, i decided to say bye becasue i felt like it, no reason, i dont really care if any pokes fun at this, soem of us are ment to live and enjoy life and well the others such as myself are the ones not ment for this, not suposed to be alive, well my old man always said i was a mistake, well at least this way he can stop saying it, and mayble i'll be less lonely when iam dead
goodbye

 

I pm'd you,hope you will read it.
teepi

 

Stony,please don't do any thing rash! WE ALL HAVE HAD SOME SHITTY TIMES! As for your dad,he has problems! I really don't think many of us were 'planned' children,your dad included. He may not have been loved as a kid & doesn't know how to give it to you.He's not much of a man to tell you that you were a mistake!My grandmother was a bitch to my mom,my mom was a bitch to me,I chose not to have children,I wanted to break that cycle.I hope that you really think things through.LIFE CAN BE WONDERFUL!!!!It's up to you to make it happen! If this was a joke posting,oh well...if not, please take care!

 

Stoney, read this very carefully....mother nature is perfect in all her own ways, the only thing that intends for sadness to occur is human nature. we are all meant to live and enjoy life as it is and love one another. everyone no matter who you are is supposed to be happy and if you keep on pouting you'll never be happy. never. i grew up so horribly and today i still have shitty problems but i know that the only way to be happy is to not dwell on the past. LOOK UP! KEEP YOUR HEAD HIGH. ALL OF US COME TO GETHER AND LOVE ONE ANOTHER, WE ALL CAN MAKE OUR SADNESS GO AWAY IF WE JUST COME TOGETHER! dont give up stoney, smoke a bizzole!

 

stoney please don't let your father win... like others here I had a pretty shitty life as a teenager/young adult, however, I learned to rise above it. It might seem hard but it's totally within your reach RIGHT NOW

PM me if you need to talk, 'k

 

okay dude, if im gonna have to write this. i will. i dunno what they mean by what they say about your dad, im sure he sucks really bad. that he makes everything hard on you..but they're making a good point. i mean you can let this guy win in a sense. now it's not a contest in any way, but what i mean is. that you cant let an asshole like that have the satisfaction of bringing you down brother. seriously. i dunno what it's doing to you or to what extent it's breaking you, but i know how much that it hurts living in torment day after fucking day. my stepdad..he's a scourge upon this earth, moreso than other people. he was proud of himself too. so so proud, but i figure. him being such a prick showed. exactly. what i dont want to be. and if you can make it past his bullshit man. then get away and just totally kick ass. then that's something. that's cool.

the stuff. leaves scars. but dont let the wounds get infected.

i know what it's like to think that you have no purpose whatsoever to live in this damn place. to drudge day to day. hoping to die because you cant do it yourself. i know it hurts man, it hurts really bad. and if you really feel it's your time. and you cant go any longer, then by all means. but you have to think about everything man. just stop. think about it first. listen to your heart one last time. and make sure, because it's final when you do it man..im not encouraging, but just trying to get you to think. just dont bullshit it because you dont think you're not supposed to be here. none of us are supposed to be anywhere. it's just the way it is. fight man. just fight. hold on. and fight it.

 

We need you here. Please stay. The good ones have to live and love and be what the world needs to grow and be more whole and beautiful.

You can take a deep breath...cry and sing and pray...shout and swear and scream...express yourself. Let it out. Then sit with Mother Nature on your own or spend time with an animal. Let these things heal your sweet, good soul.
There are too few of us...you can't just give up and leave us here without you...
I send you a thousand elephants to carry you forward on the journey of life.
I send you a million blessings of love.

 

stoney, my name is ellie im 14. a few months ago i tried to do myself in like you want to. i took aload of pills in the hope to end it all. my life was shit, i hated everything i hated myself and i was so alone and so shit.

I was found, and taken to hospital and im obviously still alive. i hated those few weeks. i was in hospital and that was the lonliest night ive ever had. i cried all night.

trying to kill yourself wont help at all, it wont heal your pain.

believe me i know how you feel. i know the feeling of total worthlessness. its very hard to describe it because its so amazingly awful.

the only thing that has kept me going these few months is my bf mike. i started going out with him about a week after i tried to kill myself and he is my savoir. he has pretty much saved my life.

im crying while im writing this beacuse i really cant bear to think that you are going through the same as i am/was.

dont kill yourself just yet. stay a while and talk to us.

please.

ellie xxxxxxxx

 

do you think he snuffed it?

 

Pardon my language, but, FUCK! I hope not! C'mon Man. Post up!

 

yea just some kind of notice.

 

Well he was still alive as of october 1st (he logged in).

 

Wtf is going on, did I miss something? Who is he?

 

killing your self wont change anything.. you'll just have to come right back and do it again till you get it right..get out maybe.. but dont check out..

 

poor guy. I wish i could give him a hug.

 

Yeah... I tried it too... check young hippies.

 

i hope he isnt dead.... and if he is i wonder how he did it? i odnt mean that in a sinister way! Oh fuck!

 

So sad that stoney couldn't see the concern and brotherly love here, or maybe he did and felt unworthy.
We all have our crosses to bear and sometimes that cross is so heavy we can't do it ourselves but feel that we can't ask for help.
It's also sad that alot of us can have a million people tell us how great we are, but have one person telling us we're not, and we choose to listen to that one person who's negative.
Stoney if you do read this, I don't know you other than seeing your posts here but you are my brother, and I do feel for you. Alot of people here have been where you are right now, and have worked through it.
Please don't be afraid to ask for what you need, you do have support.
teepi

 

well, that was his last post...

 

Perhaps not!