it's been a long while since i last visited and posted, i m just wasting time, but i also have something/nothing to talk about.... About last year around june, i got tired of the same old scene, probably wanted to act out, and hashish, pills, boose just wasnt doing it... then the itch started. lets do heroin. lets climb the ladder, lets do what layne did, lets go through this to find out what it feels like. well. almost a year later...my right foots broken, i have slashes on my wrists, and WE wish we didnt touch the shite. we thought we could keep it balanced. and it was more out of balance then ever before. sure it was a hell of a ride, and i ve changed as a person since then. seen things, seen the damned junkies, went through a fcked up college semester.... but i m listening to pearl jam sing 'how much difference does it make" and i think it makes alot, since the foot injury, the physical heroin withrwal symptoms went away..like a flash. now here i sit, smoking this shit. i think i m happy confined as lonng as i have hashish. such a shithead. if anyone pays enough attention, ...it's the devils shite. if your on a self-destructive path, its worse then death, it's slow death. if only i could be a chipper, but i m a sraight abusive addict. strange indeed. please share. PS: the 2nd best thing about heroin was smoking a joint on it, which intensified it effects...it wudnt be heroiin if ya didnt have hash...but by then we just had to do it to be 'normal' .... and coming off it for 4-5 days then going again was a dumb move. main point. heroin kills it'd be a perfect world if heroin didnt have withdrwal. keep smokin them jaaaaaaays....
