i had a lucid dream last night where all my close friends were trying to kill me, but i killed them all instead, because i had a machine gun that never ran out of ammo. It was kind of fucked up, i dont know why i would have a dream about killing all the people i care about, let alone one where i was aware that i was dreaming and still consciously firing at people.
There is something you have to do for yourself that may hurt your friends. You are pretty sure that it would hurt your friends but I'm saying may, not definite. They are changing you in a way you do not like (sub or supra-consciously) and you need to freeze them out of the mechanisms of change at these levels while still being consdious that they are your friends.
