HELP. idk if im gay

edit

 

Well, you probably wont believe this, but Monday, 2 days ago, after checking out ads for guys to hookup on CraigsL, I hooked up with a guy and had oral sex. We both climaxed. I had been curious for decades, you see I am (a young) 53, but had never done anything with a man, only with women, although not many. I got tired of being both somewhat homophobic, but even more of being attracted to young, in-shape guys, but never acting on it, and even being intimidated by the thought, when it was actually a possibility. So, I felt I had to "get it out of me", and Monday I had oral intercourse with this gay guy that was hung like a horse. Well, I dont regret it, although it's a little depressing, since I am not used to living with the fact of having done such a thing. But, I dont think I would want to go any further with it, anal or whatever, but I want to see what time will tell me, if I want to do it again or not. So far, I actually think that it was an experiment to connect fantasy with reality, and I dont know if I will do it again. Dont feel so homophobic now! I have to get on with things, emotionally, and that had been a block. So I have to see. Wouldnt want a gay romance I know. Your guys responses are welcome, well that's why I posted I guess!

 

Gay by the sounds of it; possibly bi.
make sure that whatever you think you are that you enjoy it.
You've only got one life.

 

edit

 

No, this is not another personal ad, nor am I looking for my next conquest. I am still a little depressed, but phobias seem to be gone. I will see how it plays out over time. I was only looking for some feedback, which some of you have given me.

 

edit

 

It isn't really much of an issue to suck a dick in the raw, that is unless you are stupid enough to take his possibly impure manly essence into your mouth.

I know tons of dudes that get hookups on craigslist hahahaha i think it's only really good for it comedic value.

 

edit

 

calisouth, your words have had their effect, and I appreciate your concern. I'll look into where to get a test. No, I didn't take his "manly essence" into my mouth, although he did take mine.

 

edit

 

Wow. Thanks for sharing.

 

Calisouth, the reason I haven't posted is the testing center said you have to wait 3-4 weeks to be tested for an STD. My appointment is now for April 10 .

 

I hate the nail biting sesh while you wait on results.

 

Well, this seems to be a recurring topic here. People who obsess over whether they are gay or not.

When I was starting to come out to myself, guess I was lucky to be living in a sinful city like New Orleans where you knew a lot of gay guys and new that it was a norm of sorts. I obsessed quietly for a while, like looking at a cold pool, then jumped in and have been enjoying the swim ever since.

My advice to the kid wondering about his sexuality - don't think about it, go with the flow. If it feels good - do it.
(BTW - if you are over 18, I would be glad to teach you Introduction to Gay Male 101)

My adviced to the guy who's probably too old pique my interest, don't think about it, go with the flow. If it feels good - do it.

 

to the previous poster I call the bay area my home and as such have been shanked, I though am over 18 and in times i have lived there will admit that I am down with the sleazy shit and would after running highway 101 many a time would absoluetely love to have a crash course on gay 101, there's a chick that runs US 101 in a silver european sportscar i'd love to chat with.

 

STD test negative, finally.

 

i think you should watch some gay porn and if you get horny then your gay

 

edit

 

edit

 

chile, stop denying it. you would do yourself a favor. shit, i had them feelings when i was your age. hell, me and the pillow was real close back then.