Here is my story, If anyone can point the right direction Id be forever grateful...

Hello friends, My name is Justin and Im writing this because I've had severe social anxiety for about 13 years now and am about to turn 29. Id always been shy, but when I was 16 I had a bad acid trip and a few crappy ones after that basically made me very AWARE of that part of me. Lately I've started to wonder if I will ever overcome it. Through the years Some parts of my anxiety have gotten better, but some of them are getting much worse these last few. I feel that I am a beautiful person inside and out,I care deeply for people and genuinely want to help and connect with them, but have a VERY hard time doing so.

Just recently got a good job where I work with A LOT more people than I ever have before. Since Ive started my panic attacks have gotten worse and they have happen in front of multiple people including my supervisors AND their supervisors!

Ive only taken small amounts of xannax a few times, but I ended up having to take 1 to 1.5mg of of them and I would still be freaking out all day long for the most part. I ended up getting a few klonopins and have taken .5mg about 20 minutes before work along with .5mg of xanax. Usually when I get to work I feel a little relaxed going in, but if i have to do anything I havent done before and especially if I have to talk to somebody, once again Im totally panicy. Usually once I get to my desk and on the phone I will start to relax a little more. Unfortionately it doesnt last for long and I will usually have to take .5mg of xannax more, sometimes twice.

I have remained at 1mg of zannax for the about 3 weeks and I have just started taking klonopins this last week. I feel now that I am on the Kpins I have been able to have 2 conversations with people without FREAKING out, I really cant remember talking to anyone like that before without feeling very uncomfortable. Still if certian people that I think 'know' or new people try to talk to me I freak.

Two years ago I took paxil and effexor for about 6 months eatch and though they helped with a few things, I felt they made a lot of things harder and did not really help enough with my anxiety to go further with them. I was also diagnosed with ADD when I was in 1st grade if that means anything and took a very low dose of it for about a year and felt it made me a zombie. And also had a bad acid experience that really made me AWARE of it.

Im really concerned because I really dont want to be on medication for the rest of my life. I have been fight this for a long time with very little meds and no results to speak of.

If anyone has any advice about what might help me or advice about medications besides ssri's and maoi's (Im a little scared of them) please let me know.

I feel like Im taking TOO much as it is and I can still barely handle all of the pressure!

Thanks for reading.

 

A good therapist can help. Also, look into meditation techniques---Transcendental Meditation is one that has helped thousands; and it's free. The internet has plenty of info on it. It has no religious implications; it's good for relaxation and calming the mind. And leave the psychedelics alone, at least for a while. Pot should be avoided too; as relaxing as it might be, it tends to magnify and intensify experiences and you probably don't need anxiety intensified.

 

dude stop putting wateva kind of drugs (medicinal or otherwise) into your body. i suffer a little with this sort of problem myself, i will be in a physics lesson and i will have a major urge 2 hid under the table. i find qigong works, its a chines healing technique and is very effective
be whole

 

meditation yoga and dumming
breathing techniques as well

buyt therapy is absolutely necasary talking not medicating