I havent posted on here in awhile ut for some reason tonight i was drawn to hipforums and i just stumbled in here decided to post something something.. I was wondering how other people feel about being psychic...Im interested to hear other people's stories and experiences with the psyche because i feel i migt be able to understand myself better. Any guidance would be much appreciatd because at this point in my life i feel like i could use it... I havent been able to decide really about how psychic i am or if i am just highly intuitive. I have a lot of intuitive friends, my closest who are the ones who seem to be able to read my thoughts and kind of jjust get me. Honestly im having a difficult time explaining this because i think i may be too unfamiliar with it. Im trying to find kinda where i stand. My whole life i have felt very alienated from the world, always kind of a loner,introverted,shy,depressed, bad memory,bad attention...ive felt very off and like i am not my true self. a lot of this was probably how i was raised, very conservatively. i was always kind of the weird kid, weird as in kinda goofy and just not like everyone else. Other evidence from my life proves that my existence in this life is very strange and special. the last two years of my life have been a major turning point in me. Ive kind of expanded my conciousness and started to become closer with the universe. Its been a very long dark night of the soul, to say the least. I started learning about pyschadelic drugs, then eastern religions, the whole bit, but it wasnt until a certain 2 months of my life that i started to understand everything for what it is. since then ive been trying to figure out what my place and purpose is, what my goal in life is...its been a difficult journey, ive been depressed and falling into a damaging habitual lifestyle of drinking and drugs and friends and escapism. i have hardly worked, hardly written (im a writer,at least i used to be), ive become distracted. I fell into a close-knit froup of friends that i have learned a lot from and love more than anything, but our relationships are starting to dissipate because change is here, it needs to happen and im just waiting for everything to fall into place...the problem is I don't know where to turn...there is so much i want to do, so many things i could invest energy in but i know its impossible at this point, i cant make up for all the time i lost throughout my life, being bored and throwing life away...and im not sure how to start over. I need to be reborn, in a sense... im starting to rant, which i think is good. I hope someones listening...ill try to get back to the original topic.. Basically i feel a strong pull towards something higher, like its my calling..i just dont know where to turn. i want to increase my psychic abilities but i dont know how or if i should do something else, im very indecisive. i feel like i should pursue yoga, which i am taking through school. i feel very at ease and normal doing yoga...but besides that, what else? My existence here is special, like everyone's, but my life feels more distinct, like i am supposed to do something or accomplish somehting or help somebody or help everybody...Im sure some people feel like this, maybe a lot of people do. id like to hear everyone's experiences, it helps me understand myself better, like i said. this kind went all over the place but it feels good to talk to you people, hopefully we can help each other in some way...Love& pEAce also-what do you all think about angels and spirit guides. i had a psychic i talked to who told my im very close to my angels or guides, that i will "never die or get hurt, it just wont happen" were the words i was told. It makes me feel like im being watched and looked over, ive had a blessed life as well. do any of you feel like this? do you communicate with them?
Wow Mac - hey, pass that bottle over here. Too bad this forum is in the way - seems like we need to just sit around for a while and chew the fat. I dunno, Mac. I'm weird, too. I've managed to keep my weirdness under wraps enough to function decently in the mainstream, but that's just discipline. And sometimes I haven't been so disciplined, and have tried to be my authentic self in all areas of my life. Those were the times things started falling apart. Maybe it was good that things fell apart. Maybe they should continue falling apart - but you know, it seems like after I pulled myself out of hell and started my new existence, things changed some. In the midst of the mainstread, I'm surrounded by people who have a spiritual life, and like to hear what I have to say about mine. So what I guess I'm saying is: You're 20? And talking about starting over? Hell, Mac, you're young enough to just get started. You can get started any time, no matter how old you are. And here's how to get your bearings: What do you feel like doing right now? Nothing come to mind? Then just do whatever. If something does come to mind - then do that. And when it no longer feels right, stop doing it. It's nice to have a plan, but if you don't know what you want right now, how ya gonna figure out what you'll want in a year, or five years, or whatever? Now if you need money, that's different. You probably need to do something to get some money - tho not necessarily, cuz life is funny. If not working happens to fall within your groove, then you'll be okay without money, for however long that groove continues. I've started over lots of times. Sometimes what you want to do shifts. Sometimes it's small shifts, sometimes big ones. And I've been lost lots of times. And other times I know exactly where I am, and why I had to do what I did, and what I need to do next. Be patient, the light will return at the right time. Here's that bottle I borrowed - I've mooched enough.
^^ i like what he said! mac, i get what you mean about feeling "different." some of us are more ready in this particular lifetime, in this particular moment, to become more aware of reality. and let me tell you, from what i've been going through lately, reality is not at all what i ever thought or was taught it was!! you're younger than me, and i'm in the process of starting over, so i know you can do it too. besides... there's no such thing as starting over, when this is all an experience, and nothing is ever closer to an end than another... so starting over is a mute point lol! sorry if that got too abstract! but the thing is, we are here on this planet to experience life. it's not a race, it's not a ladder to climb... it's simply an experience. a walk in a park. doesn't always feel like it's that nice, but you know... sometimes a rollerblader comes out of nowhere and knocks you down. that's what you get when you walk in the park! it sounds like you're doing a whole lot of really great soul searching and looking inside yourself. that's rarely ever comfortable... i've been doing a good bit of it myself lately, and it hurts like hell and really sucks. but i know that i'm doing this for a reason, and it seems like you are too. everything's going to be okay. it's already okay. i know for me, sometimes it just helps to have someone else say that to you. so now i've said it to you, and i hope it helps you the way it does me!
