I can't stand the constraints of life. Everyday I have my brother telling me not to smoke weed, and to go apply to college, and to finish becoming emancipated. I can't handle this anymore, my life is being pushed in every direction but the one I want it to lead, and the more I fight it the harder things get. Sometimes I think things would be easier if I just went with the flow, and became a functioning adult like the rest of the world, and the way things are going that is going to happen. I dont want it though, I dont want it at all, I want to leave with my guitar some clothes some money and my piece and I want to go. There is no where in particular I want to go to, I just feel the need to leave. The life of a normal person wont work for me.
Your 16 dude you dont know that the life of a normal person wont suit you, but on the other hand i dont exactly live the life of a normal person but i have all the things a normal person would have, my own place, bills to pay, currently looking for a new job as i fliped out and stopped going to my last job caus i could not handle it any more only to realize i need a job to survive. What im trying to get at is just because you have the same things as "normal" person does not mean you have to live your life like everybody else. I can understand this feeling of needing to go or get away i used to get it a lot i just wanted to leave everything i had behind and start fresh but soon realized it was fairly hard as i had no idea where i wanted to go or what i wanted to do. I think what you need to find in life is a balance between the things you want to do with your life & the things that you need to do in this society to survive. I hope i made some points in there that will help you
go ahead, run away, become a bum on the streets. YOU DONT have to be a functioning adult, the regular go to college - get a job - get married - live your days in some house going on holiday 1 a year, retire and die. get education, and then do w/e you want, the worst that can happen is you will fail at everything and will need to work (but get a decent wage).
Why don't you just go see some colleges or something and work out what kinda direction you want to go job-wise. if you dont like it, dont do it, but it cant hurt to try... right? well its an idea......
You may find that college suits you better than you think. Find a school that appeals to you. There are soooo many different ones out there. You could even major in music, that way if you did end up leading a "normal" life, you could get a job teaching music or something like that. College is where you really wrestle with who you want to be....and being around friends who are struggling just as you are will probably make it easier. Plus, there are a lot of fun things to do in college to help take your mind off the stresses of life.
I know exactly how you feel. I'm just about to drop out of high school to persue my acting career. I just want to travel to the US (I live in Denmark) and find my way there.
Man i know what you mean...I dropped out of college. College aint so bad and can prepare you for a good job if your lucky but its not what i wanted. Right now i make more money then i have ever in my whole life and guess what, i have more expenses then i have ever had too, so basically im back at square one. Theres no point in this system i just wanna do my own thing and start my own life. My advice is do what YOU want as long as you figure it out and make it work. Its always a trade off.
