I would appreciate a reading from you Old Crone

I realize that you have been getting alot of reading requests, and I'm sorry for making that pile even heavier. I hope that you don't feel rushed or overwhelmed.

Recently I haven't really known where my head is exactly. I get a lot of anxiety and I know that's because I'm worried about something that has or might happen. Though I am learning about this, and trying to be as present in the now as I can be. I've had a different kind of anxiety since last saturday, where it feels alot more heavy and depressing. But I have had some realizations about myself that help it go away... Actually I think it's gone for the most part.

I guess I'm not sure about what I'm asking. Maybe I just need a better understanding of my life right now.

Thanks alot.

 

Hi Snail

Part of the challange inside you is you are trying to puch a meditation way into you as though you were the bottle and the meditation was the air around you. This happens when a person is searching for their own individaul tonal lanquage or sound within them.

My sound is varied from African and Myan, and Native American drums to bluegrass, Enya and some nature music, and changes with the needs around, and in me. Some people are drawn to flutes, opera, conutry and western music, big bands and so one. The list is endless. The way you find this vibrational tone is to seek out music that speaks to you inside. Your Spirit will know, and set up a resonance of sound that will strengthen you, and help set your own life course.

Some sounds like heavy metal, and some rap music have a depression, and rage factor built in so when you listen to this type of music you can go stir cray, or develope panic attacks with the energy that is pushed at you. The same goes with movies, and the mind control flash words behind the picture. Watch enough violence, and the energy body acts out what is taken in. We are like blue prints in Spirit form, and setting our forms around us.

First start with a single sound, and go from there. The other medium you have is art. Find a way to make this place of color work with you. Your aura to me looks like wall paper patterns that change designs, and colors, and are not sure of one place for grounding, or being still. Art is a talent within you that will ground you, and become your meditation place as sewing is mine. You came through to find a way to show what people needed to see in order to heal the wounds of energies past. Do not limit yourself to just paint, Be creative, and let your determined strength push you on changing you, and offering you what you most seek within you. This will be like the ripples within your dream place. That which you create.....creates you.

Your greatest strength is passion for what you believe in. Your greatest weakness is your not understanding the journey that offers you a balanced place to heal your own heart. Your life just before this one was as a dress maker who was known for the style and things he used to make dresses from. You died in surgery {wound to your side} before finishing a job you had been commissioned to do. Most likely you will have occasional side pain, and head aches carried over from that time.

When you set a list of what is important to you and follow your heart you will begin to see the road head. Right now you only get a glimps of the next step, and choice within you.

 

Thanks alot old crone. I thought my past life was pretty neat haha. I'm remembering passing dress stores and saying to myself either "Wow those are nice" or "Those are terrible dresses". I will definitely be searching for for music that speaks to me. I listen to music alll of the time, and I've found that it really changes how I feel when I'm listening. There are some bands that have a CD that seem like they're talking to me/about me. It's weird that you mentioned art. I've always thought of myself as a bad artist. Recently I have thought about drawing and writing more than usual. Actually I've been doodling in class now.

Thank you again old crone, thank you thank you thank you. This has helped.