Do NOT be alarmed. I come in conjunction with the hopelessness of everyday routine. I am the bee you are fascinated by, yet roll your window up when I approach too closely. I am the bringer of the fire, for when you are at your wits end and need a cigarette, but you have nothing to light it with. I am the best kept secret hidden within the confounds of your mind. Questions, answers, answers, questions. The metallic taste upon your lips is not from the pen you are chewing on, but from the inability to process anything higher than "stop, go." I am on your side, and I oppose everything you stand for. I come in peace but I am here to fight the silence. Please, do not speak. Red and Orange. I burn brighter than the most distant planet. There is no present, only what has yet to be. I should have done something, but I've done it enough. I am the epitomy of every stereotype that is every anti-stereotype. I conform to not conforming. I come on the wings of the massacre that has shattered every dream that has been built into this shifting foundation. Do NOT be alarmed.
Thanks. I guess I should give a little information about myself. I am me. No, lol, I'm totally kidding. Well I'm not, but...yeah you know the drill. Okay so here is the real intro - I'm currently in the USAF (Air Force) and stationed in Sunny (cough cough) England. I am currently in the process of getting kicked out (here's the shocker, it's not because I'm gay.) and I'm so ready to take my unhappy butt back to the real sunny Alabama. (No matter what people think about the place, I love it.) I haven't had a pleasant experience in England except for two things. The first being the awesome weed I got to smoke, the second being the friends I have made/the experiences I've had. I've been out to the majority of my family and friends since I was 18, and I had my first boyfriend when I was 17. I love music, and I'm really passionate about writing. I'm a fan of fishing, camping, and canoing. I'm a beach bum to the extreme (torn jeans/board shorts, t-shirt, flipflops) My soulmate is a girl even though there is no sexual attraction between the two of us, nor will there ever be. She understands me better than anyone (and she's not gay) and she's always been there for me. She's my definition of a friend. I'm a huge fan of Skunk Anansie with a twist of Jimmy Eat World and Within Temptation. I'm adventurous like whoa. For example - I joined the military because I couldn't think of anything else to do, that was my sole reason. I love my family even though they are bible thumping christians, and I respect them for having such strong faith. I also respect them for never pestering me about my sexuality and just letting bygones be bygones and loving me for who I am, no matter what. I hate guys due to the fact that every boyfriend I have ever had has been a manipulative lying cheater (two of the four cheated on me with girls.) I am open minded, but I am definitely close minded. Be who you are, you have the complete right to. With that being said, I do not like drag queens nor would I probably befriend a drag queen based on my own personal strict beliefs, but with that, who the hell am I anyways? Do what makes you happy and don't worry about everybody else, including me. I'm a firm believer in astrology and tarot readings, but I've yet to find someone to give me an awesome reading. I'm in love with Georges St Pierre and Fernando Torres. I think that is about it. P.S. Sorry for the novel.
