Another reading request for Old Crone...

Hello Old Crone

I was hoping that you could do a reading for me as well please? I know you've been getting a lot of requests lately, but i would really appreciate anything you can pick up on. And also, if you're able to pick up on my spirit guide?

Also, i do have some pictures in my hipgallery, i don't know if that'll help.

Thank you in advance

♥

 

Hi ooghost27

I wanted to spend time with your request before answering. Somehow I feel as if the questions you really wanted answered were not spoken. I feel as if I am getting a double exposure, so will run with what comes through, and trust this is ok with you.

First as I sat in stillness I found I was inside a cocoon. Going through the process of transformation, and not sure who I was. I was unclear if I was coming and or going. I wanted to be different. I wanted to be me. I wanted so many things, and wanted nothing at all. When the night passed I emerged as a monarch butterfly. I was both drawn to all that I felt connected to, and felt alone as if the illusions around me were more real than was what I had become. As I felt my wings naturally stretch, and unfold I felt alive, and afraid. I wanted to fly, and wanted to stay safe inside my cocoon. Who do I tell these things too. I did not want to speak as I felt as fragile as I felt strong. I just wanted to know who, and what I am, and what purpose I served by being here. I also understood as I define my own contradictions, I defined the path I would seek to follow beyond my self. I wanted to know this was ok, and wanted to be sure of what being true to my self meant, and knew I had no fricken clue what I wanted, or needed.

From here I found a gentle wind asking me to still my own chaos, and grow the trust from within. The wind ask me to grow my own truth so what I became would be mine. I was here to grow. I was here to find the things I longed for were only mine when I grew them from within me. This was about me trusting me to become what ever I choose to become.

Then I stood at the edge of an indoor hanging garden. The structure was made of glass, and the sunlight shone without restraint. The limits we give our self are the only limits we really have. This was about my response, not my reactions inside what I felt. This was about the way I chose to be where ever I was planted.

This was when I found as I spoke to my own heart, I spoke to your heart.

In this place of divided reality I saw three people waiting for me. They came near, and stood just in front of me at the hanging gardens door.

Nigal introduced him self first. Is is a teacher, and personal trainer. He is about 25 and seems like he is 225. He is wise, still, quiet and enters life from a warriors place of understanding. He had dark coal black hair, and says he finds he is his own creation no matter if he is being the sacred stillness, or the teacher, or warrior within. He is your first Spirit Guide.

Next came Elizabeth who was very proper English. She had the heart of a queen, and the understanding of the mass's who believed in her. Her greatest joy was in finding what her heart called for her to do. She makes fine, and intricate jewerly that is as simple as it is profound. Fragile as it is strong. She is about 50, and seems like a child in her embrace of belonging in what she creates within her own perceptions. She see's the world totally different than most people. This is her place of creations within herself. She adorns the clothing that calls to her, and is sacredly inspired, which makes no sense to those around her. She is your second Spirit Guide.

Your Third Spirit Guide is Mya Loo. He is French, and wants nothing more than to grow with depth, and understanding. He shares his insight with the hope that each will find their way into wholeness, and not live in fractured understandings. He is in his early thirties. His meassage is to make real for you what ever purpose you wish to become one with. Do not accept being used, but embrace being the truth you create within you.

Your past life before this one was in an orphanage as a nanny to displaced children who had no place to go. You thought if you had the power within you you would make right so many wrongs and heal a broken land that did not seek to heal itself. This life you carry many of the lost feelings within you. Confusion and stubborness are your trade marks and you find you are not sure where to begin. You want your life back so to speak and find this is your life. We are here for the journey, the growing beyond our own understandings. You can not change anothers heart. You can only change yours. In this way you change the worlds around you.

Your fears of drowning and fire also seem a contradiction but when understaning the orphanage burned down, and you died of pneumonia makes perfect sense. You want perfection, and to be beautiful, and do not see how perfectly beautiful you are.

What you really wanted to understand was will you be ok, and will you know what is yours to do. YES. Yes. and again I say yes. As you breathe so make your choices, and your steps, and heart will follow where you wish to go to face yourself, and learn to become your beauty, love, and purpose within you.

In my personal forum I wrote a post titled Unfolding Love. This is where you being within you.

 

lol, getting quite popular eh crone?

I must follow everybody and ask you for a reading as I ask very seldomly.

I can already tell you, you won't find any guides with me.

 

Thank you so much for your reply Old Crone

Many of the things you said spoke so much truth to me. And to be honest, a lot of it was way over my head Including the Unfolding Love, as gorgeous as the writing is

The gentle wind you described blew me away (no pun intended). This is because, just before this year started, i asked for my guide to give me sign that she/he was around or cared little at least. The first day i had asked, i didn't find a sign, and i had gotten pretty sad and angry about it. Which i know i probably shouldn't have, but i did. I was still really angry and sad the next day, but i asked again with all the anger and little hope. And i had these two gusts of gentle wind pass threw my head that i heard and felt so vibrant and clearly. I've never experienced anything like that before.

Wow! I have 3 guides? I am one lucky girl. I hope to have some better connection and more contact with them soon. Would you reccomend meditation for this?

I was wondering if you could see my aura from there? Also, i was wondering if you could pick up on anything about this friend that i had about 3-4 years ago. We had this intense connection of like mindedness, and i feel like we may have known eachother before in another life. We were driven really far apart, but i think about him at least once everyday. Do you pick up on anything if that was a good thing that we weren't supposed to know eachother in this lifetime again, or if i will ever be in contact with him again in this life? I've tried to contact him, but it's been difficult. And if not, if i will ever have that with someone again?



I hope that i'm not asking too much from you, and again, thank you very very much.


♥

 

Hi ooghost27

Your aura looks like a rainbow prism with light flowing through its own place of transformations. This speaks of change, growing, and reflection of all you have within you while asking you to see, or perceive things from many different places.

As to your friend the message here is for you to become your own light. When people come in and out of our lives this is not about holding on or wishful thinking. We are not here to "be loved" We are here to Become Love. When we come from a place of wholeness there will be those we merge with on different levels. The challange comes in when with desperation we long for some one to complete us. This is not love. This is co-dependent and using someone to make you feel good about yourself.

There are many connections we share that are amazing and wonderful. But until we can come from a whole place within us we will miss the greater depth and beauty of just what a connection means. This is not about "Someone Special" coming into to our lives to give us purpose and meaning. This is about embracing the dance before us with wholeness.

This is not about when, if, and will this happen. This is about being You in all your beauty, and wonder so when you do merge with someone there is a magic that is and need not be explained.

Honor your friend, and your self by growing whole within you. Find your path. Walk your journey. Become that which you long for, and know love is as the breath we breathe. Don't ask for promises, there are none. Do not ask for a garentee. There is none. The conditions, and walls you build are your own. Allow the worlds in and around you to change with wonders, and possabilities you have yet to dream. In the letting go we find we klearn to embrace a love so complete that when the moment comes we have someone to share this place with we are ready, willing, and able to be the magic we wish for.

When we wait for someone to carry us onto the dance floor we miss the joy of the dance within us.

 

Hi Bl4

In truth you did not "need" to ask for a reading. You choose to. As you seek the truth in others, you seem to build as many walls as you try to tear down. This was a strange way to open this reading but will go with what I see.

First there are many guides. You just choose to not interact with them, or see them. Almost as if you feel so powerful within you, you stand on a living pedestal.

Your aura to me looks like the Grand Canyon. Vast, open, and deep with many things hidden from view. I see many flying Pegasus emerging from the Canyon. There are also crows, and falcons. A strange mix to be sure.

This speaks to me of Hidden fears, need for control, stubbonness, magic, and a desire for mystical power. This also speaks of each individuals perception of a truth, and not necessarly what is, or may be true.

I feel like a fly being drawn into a web where you feel safe, and no matter what I say You will find a way to stay on the pedestal thinking this is solid ground.

You are on a 4 to 7 year cycle in energy, and seemingly try to buy, or manipulate for more time. You are very aware of the power of thought, and intent. You are not afraid to take on those weaker than you, and sometimes hold a false front like a camelion to shield your self from being seen.

Your contradictions, expectations, and demands for what you feel is right are almost written in stone....except when it comes to your own life. You like being right, and often will set up a conversation so you come out on top so to speak.

Deeply passionate about what you do, and resilient.

Your animal guides are both the Pegasus, and the Rainbow Serpent of the Nile. This would tell me you are aware of your power and can be both judgemental or healing. You know the power of choices, and hold your self protected from being hurt as you find your greatest fear is vulnerability.

As much as you feel you have found your path in life, at times you also find within you a place that seeks to live a created lie.

Many leaders have come from this place. As you become the enabler you find many victims willing to fall. A master teacher of human nature, while not always groking the power of love, and compassion.

As you wrap your shield around you letting me what you wish for me to see, You also hope there is a part of truth that will see beyond what you show me. As much as you are open, you are still trying to define where you wish to belong, and fit in, and what will give you purpose, and meaning in life.

This reminds me of a conversation I had yesterday with someone. They were talking about the law of compensation. Here you seek compensation by wanting others to see you for who you are, when in reality their seeing what you want them to, makes you more sure of who you think you are trying to be. Ah the circles we grow around us. Your past life before this one was as a Judge in Salem.

Because you are an intense person your energy is wired for great good, or great distruction. You choose where this life, and place will take you. What you become will change the world.

 

Spot on.

I've never had someone give such an indepth reading of me as you just did here.

I block myself so much it's not even funny, I don't even know how I do it. Picture this, you have the ability to do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING, the power to create, stored knowledge from 100's of thousands of years ago, enlightenment completed many-a-life time's ago, absolute 100% control over destiny/life, able to manifest almost instantly, an intuition that cannot be beat, but the only thing blocking you from all this, is yourself.

It frustrates me to no end, I feel like I'm fucking up big time, I carry so much responsibility, so much influence, so much power, but what's the point in having it if you can't even use it? I have all the tools I need, infact, I don't even need to be here asking for help, I already know how to fix it, but I block myself to the point where I block myself in and must use outside sources.

I'm only 18, I used to be an atheist one year ago, now my whole fucking life has been flipped upside down and continues flipping upside down every week.

Not only have I realized god, I've figured out creation, there isn't much out there that I do not know, I remember the only thing I ever wanted to do before I died was either prove god or figure out the Universe. I've done both in less than 9 months of awakening.

What are my goals now? I understand that I have the choice to leave this earth, or stay, but which path is the correct one? I am uncertain of transcending at this point in my life as I am fairly young, and I know my choice will have a severe consequence. I still fear death, even though I've gone through this countless times before.

Not only do I have myself to take in to consideration, but perhaps everyone on this earth.

Do you know how stressfull that is? Do you know how many times I've thought to myself whether humanity is worth it or not, how many times I've thought of saying fuck you and going my own way.

I am still unclear on whether I have guides or not, several people have told me I have none. People who have tried feeling/connecting to my guides have failed and cannot say if I have guides. A reliable source even told me I do not have guides unless in emergency situations, temp guides.

Could you explain this 4 to 7 year cycle in energy? I believe I know what your talking about, and it has been at the base of my concerns for the past 2 months or so. I keep feeling like I am being drawn away from this earth and I do not have enough time.

Sometimes, I despise having this much control, I hold my self back deeply. I only wish that I make the right decision, if not for me, atleast for this earth.

I've learned now, that just because I carried no karma into this life, a "virgin" birth, does not mean your life or path gets any easier. It just pushes you up to the next tier of challenges, ones that have greater impact. I am working with karma on a Universal level.

Any advice?

 

Also, I cannot find much, if anything at all, on the guides you have told me about.

 

Hah, I just have to give you credit once more.

No one has ever delved that deep into me before.

I have a question about my past lives, I have been told I am a person that SHOULD NOT look back into their past lives. Why is this?

 

Just a thought, Bl4ck3n3D - have you ever considered studying the lives of people like Gautama Buddha and Jesus, to see how they handled their years as physical beings on earth in such a highly developed spiritual state?

 

we are all in it together . why would you think nobody taking care of you ? you talk too lonesome . maybe go be a mystic bum and just see if somebody spare you some good change ... and what will you give . well , you give some kindness all around and whenever and wherever . music ?

spirit man make a spirit gift .

 

Although I am here and in this with you and everybody else, I chose to be apart of it, I didn't have to, I still don't have to. You can consider me a ringer coming in and saving the game.

 

i'd consider you to be a unicorn . the one thing leprechan tells me about unicorns is that they exist yet never are seen . and how does one become a leprechan ? first , one becomes a unicorn . and how do you catch a leprechan ? by mine wit . then what happens should you catch a leprechan ? he's gotta tell you the leprechan's secret . the question is how doost ye become .... a magic self . huh ?

 

No I haven't, but people have been mentioning them to me lately, perhaps it is time I digged in.

 

Hi Bl4

The greatest gift, and blessing you can become to yourself, and the world around you, is to let go of the "God Complex". This is a trap the ego knows well.

We are not here to save the world. We are here to grow beyond what we know. We are All Spirits having a Human experience. You can know everything, but even Jesus said greater works than he did we would do. He did not set himself up as you are doing within yourself.

We came through as Spirits to learn love, compassion, and what life means by the choices we make.

This reminds me of this one foster home I was in. One of the kids got a basket of fruit. They were so excited, then afraid someone would steal their basket or fruit. Then they became obsessed with this need to possess, and feel better than everyone else because "THEY" got the basket of fruit. Time went on, and a month later the fruit rotted in the dark corner of the closet where it was hidden. Bugs crawled all over this basket, and the rot ate through destroying the basket.

At the same time the one kid got his fruit, another was given a ten packet of gum. He traded some gum for a baseball card he wanted, He just out right shared some, and some he collected nickels, and dimes to get this movie he wanted. A month later he had many friends, No gum, and a movie he enjoyed with others.

When we set out self up on a pedistool we are sure to fall. When we set our self up as Gods above others we will find others want nothing to do with the possessive judgenements, rulers, and worship demanded of them. And when we selfishly hord that which was made to be shared we grow rotten, and bitter with age.

You are here to grow beyond this place.

You can go back in several past lives, and find you are running from your own loneliness inside, and afraid to live the vulnerability of humbleness within. When others told you not to look at your past lives they were telling you what you wanted to hear. The truth was they did not want to see beyond your own blocks, and shields. We each are gods, and goddess's, and each is their own I Am. No Biggie, and definately not a wow factor. Bitterness grows as does blame when we we try to make this a personal power struggle .

Live equally with all relations understanding the connections formed are best when each finds wholeness and respect as much inside as they do out side of the lives they are living.

 

I confuse myself, I really don't know what direction to take in this life.

Humbleness within? I consider myself very humble with others, do you mean how I perceive myself?

 

One more request, Old Crone.

Could you give me any insight on myself when I am sleeping?

I know I never truly rest, I need lots of sleep, and no matter how much I get, I am never fully rested. I know I am living in multiple densities/ 2 places at once. I have this, earth life I live, where I do certain things and have work to do, and than I have the life when I am asleep. I work around the clock, and I was wondering if you could tell me about my other side?

I don't think I dream anymore, I am becoming aware of what I do in my sleep, and I remember.

The othernight I remember having a very weird "dream", for lack of a better term. The main part that has kept my interest is this: I was with a group of people, walking down this super-highway of sorts, although it wasn't on earth, it was interdemensional I believe. Anyways, I decided to hop the barrier into the next "lane". I was by myself, but could still see/speak with those in the other lane. I remember looking up to the skies and seeing blue and green orbs, I was speaking to them but I do not remember specifically. Suddenly, I was swept off my feet, speeding down the lane at a speed I can't compare to, it was faster than the speed of light, and even thought? I got scared and grabbed on to the side and held on. I began speaking with the group on the other side, and they were mentioning the speed of "love", or the lane of love, the path of love, something to do with love and how I chose the path. No one in sight was in this lane except me. They explained it was a unique path that none have taken, and it would explain my rapid acceleration in spiritual development? Among other things.

I can say I am a little confused, could you lend a hand?

 

Am I interpreting this correctly when I say: When you work with the force of love, the power of love, nothing is stronger, nothing is greater? When your path is one that is aligned with the force of love, nothing can stand in your way?

 

nothing can stand in your way because everything is always moving and you as love is divine anarchy , lovingly wild and magic and easy . it's also an art of not defining anything too much . magic first-most holds the essence of being and that is the part (of anything) which can never change . you can hardly even ask what it is . you just hold it kindly like holding a baby and sing .

it's very fine you have chosen to be a man of all people and many tribes . upon this path you will have to go through several transformations . patiently and always , hold your humble and natural essence of self . many will help you , and sometimes in wonderous nearly undefinable ways . i say this as i have done this .

 

Love doesn't 'stand in the way' of anything.

If you want to save the world, let it go and stop trying to save it.

Sometimes we mistake need for love.