Virginity, well lack there of (story sharing?)

I don't why but I always imagine losing my virginity might be a bad or at the very least very awkward experiance. I'm a guy so virginity is not very sacred to say the least i mean it not like anything rips, but what I've always observed is the connection that seems to stay when people know each other and then sleep together, even when they break up their was once you know that connection.

She was too nice for me, in all aspects and personally talking about i don't why i would be so fourtunate. The frist time i met her was coming down from the fris time i did shrooms me, (let's call her tina) and our now mutual friend traveled from party to party eventually ending up singing together on the roof of someone house. And when we part the feeling already started and i did go to bed wondering if i'd every see her again. I won't recite the whole story or any more of the my miserable courtmanship, but i will sum it up out all the people I met at college I liked her more than anyone else even when we were just friends

Anyways instead of going directly to Portland after winter break she convinced to visit her in Sacromento and we could drive up together. I won't bore you with our bueatiful day, it was nighttime and we were sleeping in her living room on the bed we brought in front of the fire, only warmth in the house. We've kissed and laided together before but i never been under her pants. Like usually we were just talking side by side and like usually i started kissing her, and she could feel me on her leg and said if i waited to we could sleep in other room (farther from her parents) She lead me to her sister bed/ guest room (she now lives in england) and we started going at it, and i didn't want to rush her becasue inside i really loved her and I didn't want to force my way into sex so I keep carying on passively untill she asked if i had a condom ( my wallet with my condom was in her car) So she went out (now topless) to her backpack and came back in. And then bam we were at it. It makes more sense if you know she is two years older.

I am so happy that in many ways it turned out normal not much of my life turns out normal, I am so happy that the girl I liked more than anyone else at one point liked me, And I am happiest over the fact that the woman I frist sleep later would be the frist woman to say she loved me and at one point really did. It is all too good I don't derserve it and writting about us makes me remeber and feel more graiteful for everthing.

Now we're really broken up so the whole relationship is preety much finished and in perspective she made me happier than i've ever been before and only as sad as I once was.

 

Hrmmm interesting...well I'm still a virgin, but hopefully that'll change soon. So ya I dunno about that connection thing. But I guess sorry? I mean, I know someone, I suppose, and I get a lot of feelings out of our relationship, but ya I get scared as to where its going, er, at least I get scared in terms of what happens after relationships, but I wish I could be more like you and be grateful for the experience. Thats cool man.

But I don't see my first time, or at least I don't imagine it, as being awkward, if it was I wouldn't want to do it. I guess I'm...picky. And my virginity is damned sacred, you're whack. Either you or me.

 

I mean in all reality you've jacked off, and if you've had a handjob or a blowjob it's all leads up to that taboo tunnel, but truely i feel it's more about the emotional connection you can make with someone becasue physical sensations (no matter how pleasing) in the end are just physically (after two months without sex I'll be singing a differnt tune) but emotions can have an untangilbe pleasentness. I'm 18 so you're still two years younger, personally i tend to like older women and generally sleeping with minors is illegal.

I know it kind of sounds silly but I wanted my frist time be with someone who I really liked and liked me and both of us were unintoxicated, and I got my wish so it would be rude (to whoever runs this universe) to not be graiteful

 

well i was raped when i lost my virginity.
second time was a guy i hardly knew just so i could say i've fucked someone and it was my choice.
wasn't awkward, though.

the most awkward thing was the first time giving head, since i had to ask him what he wanted me to do, cause i didnt know.

 

That's a beautiful story. It sounds like your first time was a good experience and although the relationship didn't last ,you have some good memories to treasure. Someday you will think back and be so lucky that you had such a good first experience. Relationships come and go(from someone probably much olderthan you ) so treasure the memories in your heart of the good ones . You sound like a sweeet soul and the right person for you will find you, in time.

 

Wow. That's a wonderful story. *claps* I'm glad you're happy about it.

Sadly, I'm going to die a virgin. Which is fine by me.

 

Hey CJ, give it time. You"re only 15? Come-on ,life is just beginning for you . You're going to "die a virgin"??? I doubt that. I never even had a kiss at your age (much less "sex")and I have had a pretty fun sex life(I'm in my 40's ) and it keeps gettting better,surprisingly. Hang in there,you will have fun times!!!

 

Aw, well I don't really care about "love" much anyway. I'm basically your garden-variety geek. I think my first kiss came from a dog.......lol

 

some people put too much emphasis on loosing there virginity and some dont put any at all, everyones different, its all your view on the subject. relationships come and go, sexual partners drift into the past and forgotten. having that connection with a person, having comfortable enjoyable sex, theres nothing better, appreciate it while you have it.

 

what do you mean like when the relationship ends?

 

Well...ya? But more in context...?

 

if you guys want to you can tell your story (sorry if it's hurtful to remeber)

 

I slept with a hillbilly when I was drunk and i got pregnant that night, when I was seventeen... stupid birth control didn't work. Birth control patch doesn't work, ladies.

 

My girlfriend told me she was a virgin when I first me her... So I told her I was too, now I can't ever take that back..... But I'm pretty sure she was lying.

 

i started dating my gf summer b4 my senior year, both virgins, and we waited a year and a half (mostly her choice), but it was worth it....we've been together almost 4 yrs and i never wanted sex to be what "made" our relationship so we waited to make sure we had a solid relationship outside sex...but the first time was obviously not as good as it is now, especially since she was so nervous...lol