Me and my friend, Nicole were once on a beach at night, and I decided to start meditating. So I was getting deeper in, until I was really 'there' (I don't really know the technical terms), and then I transformed into pure energy itself, I felt my body transform, and i was just there swirling. I was, I dunno how to explain it, it wasn't just the fact I was pure energy, it was the understanding, or I'm not quite sure how to explain it :S I was like this for quite a while, and then something strange happened, that never happened before. I normally control when I come out of meditation, edging slowly back, but this time I snapped back straight away, but with the same feeling as when you jump in fright at something. Also, my friend told me what I was like (I've never meditated with someone before), and she was saying I was deep in a trance, and she even had conversations with some guys who came to see what was up with me. The thing is, I was sure I knew what was going on around me, but obviously not. Just though I'd share this, and see whether anyone else has been pure energy or something *shrugs*
Yeah sure. When I was your age I was at Maharishi University meditating in a group of about 40 people in their meditation chapel for the people who didn't have their full program. I spend just about all my meditations 'burning up.' Yeah, classical kundalini symptoms. All energy all light all color ringing ears crawling burning energy all through my body. It went away finally. That is, the uncomfortable part. I still feel energy flowing. That is who I consider myself to be. This body is ugly by comparison. I am a space angel flowing through all things. I am a cross, the real cross at the juncture of spacetime. I am a flying witch, watch out I just don't hold your material values. I might wreak havoc on your narrowness. That sort of thing. Light. Sometimes it can be a shock.
Probably a different 'I' from the one you speak of. You know, for the longest time I played those ego/lack of ego word games, but they are no better than mere word games. If one is getting some relief from dissociating from their life in that way then I feel sorry for them. At any rate, such thinking is just another layer of thinking, and it is not a layer of freedom from thought. That's why I do not play around with such concepts. But such word games sell alot of books for the so-called 'Neoadvaitins.'
I feel the same about concepts, Chodpa.: ) Emelia...girl, that's beautiful..Keep going deeper within.
Why the need to attack? It was simply a suggestion on where to go with the experience- look within in self inquiry. If I said anything wrong or offensive, I am sorry.
