you hoked up (i assume that means sex) with someone ya dont like, and thinks ugly guilt cause u basicly used her..treatted her like shit..probly told her shes ugly ya feel guilty about being shallow and a user that or shes your perfect partner...your soul mate and your too hung up on superficial crap t realiz it either way... pay attenton to your subconceise...its tryin to tell ya your too superficile