Damnit! I thought I was out for good

Hey hip folks I'm drunk enough to confess this, I am back in the closet. I came out to my parents a while ago as bisexual, but came to terms I guess and came out to some dykes and one guy on october 11th of 06 as pure gay. Now I have made a lot of big decisions in life, some right, some dumb, but the true to heart things I am usualy sure about. Earlier this year I began to question my decision and attempted to go back to bisexuality, after 2 years of all men I got a girlfriend and came to terms with things. This is one of those close to heart things where the first decision was the right decision, I am gay. but I have girlfriend, I am back in the closet, I hate the closet, I hate the god damn motherfucking closet, I love my men.
Most of my close close friends are from highschool, and all are straight (being the ones I went to class with, did the most drugs with, they remember me as a punk, not so much a raver, which is the truth, my roots are as a punk. almost all my gay friends are kandy kids, these are my true buddies, I love them as my buddies and if they were to suddenly come out I wouldnt sleep with them for they are that close feeling, Italk to them frequently, and they all have the attitude that if you dont have to spend a lot of time talking on the phone, they're turned on by weed smoke and they're actively involved it bed it's worth the effort, even if they are smoking up your stash. Relationship with for the first time in my life ideal girl set I find that the act of lovemaking is a chore and when I am by myself I think about the darkness of said closet and how I would love to even just kiss a cute guy.
What bugs me is that this girl works and goes to school all the time and as such doesnt have much time for a relationship, and tries to get me to skip class to screw her which sucks for the first time in my life I have a handle on school, and I get the feeling all she wants outa me is my nice kitchen as a place to bake weed brownies and for sex, only see her once maybe twice a week, what sucks even more is that I have known this girl for a while, I used to sit and smoke herb with her waiting for the bus to school, she showed an attraction to me a while ago and I told her I was gay then pulled that said I made a mistake and was still bi, but now have realized the truth and will never go back on it.
Last I talked with her she was pissed that I wouldnt drop what I was doing to give her a ride to class, frankly I had just got home from there, was finally getting down to a hobby I dont persue enough, blowing glass, and had to say "im blowing glass, low on gas, I just came from there, take the bus" now she's pulling that wierd manipulative mind game shit that girls can pull to control their men, but it doesn't have an effect, it doesn't even bug me other than the thought of all the cute men i turned down cause I had a "girlfriend", hardly a relationship, havent even had time to talk truths yet, bah humbug.

I'm in the closet again, but soon will get out again, fuck the closet, there isnt room for me, there are too many clothes and marijuana plants.

 

I say dump the girlfriend if you aren't happy. She'll be upset but it's your life, you've gotta make yourself happy

 

funny story lol. In any case you seemed to have her figured out. However I would not mind a closet full of marijuana, particularly if I had the ability to grow it myself as it would be able to save on my now growing consumption of red wine and the associated costs. Grapes V weed Ah.

 

if you want her to leave you alone call her up often and tell her to come over. Then just fuck her and ask her to leave quickly after its over every time. do this about 5 times if she doest get pissed and leave you alone by then try a FALCON PUNCH...? then you can go be as gay as you please.