So in the beginning of my experiences with this whole psychic thing, I kind of "knew" what people would do next. If someone was going to tickle me, I'd turn around and stop them before I even knew they where there, and stuff like that. But when I was 7-ish I kinda had an imaginary friend, like most kids. I was never really all that popular...I had my moments, but mostly I was known as a dork who got good grades. So I had a friend..talked to her every night. Around age 13 that faded...But recently she's been coming back. And it's not so much as made up (I don't believe), because sometimes I do things I don't remember. And people will be like "What heck was up with you yesterday?!" I get terrible mood swings... TERRIBLE.. lol. Sometimes when i'm doing work I space. Because I hear her voice. and she tells me to do things on occasion, things that aren't exactly...sane ...I think she must get wasted on those days, because the next day she's all "LOVE EVERYONE, MYRA." Is this a spirit living inside of me? Or is it made up? I'm so confused... Sorry if I scared the crap out of you, lol.
I have "voices," Myra - they're telepathic communications from people and spirits. I'm not sure what your voice is. It sounds like you MIGHT have some psychic ability, and this MIGHT be a person or a spirit - or it might not. But rule #1 is: Don't mindlessly do everything the voice tells you to do. Judge what's best for yourself. If you're doing things that you don't remember doing, that's a serious issue that you need to address. Just make sure your friends aren't joking with you or messing with your mind. Do you have "blanked-out" periods where you suddenly realize time has passed and you don't remember what happened during that time? It might help to ask yourself this question every so often during the day. And if you need to do work, and she's interfering, see if you can tune her out - you need to keep to your priorities. And please let us know how it's going.
I personally do believe she's real... I've had some trips (while not being on drugs...plus i've never done anything besides grass if that helps) where I'd experience some of her best memories, the only one I actually remember is when she was with a group or tribe, they where dressed like Indians, and the dances around a camp fire as some ritual. She tells me that she was actually a real Indian, but I don't really believe her. Yeah I don't follow her. Deffinately not or I wouldn't be talking to you right now. I'd be in jail or dead. (Scars to prove it..) Maybe about the periods thing...but if so it's not for like days, maybe hours, tops. thanks for your words.
ya , i had such a "person" in my life once . so i went to an indian reservation and was met by a medicine woman who sensed it and said she could help me . i didn't take the help .. oh .. though i made some friends then and onward who give me a gentle , more natural understanding over time . it may seem personal - it's more cultural - and an honest part of living in this land . so i wear feathers in my hair ... to be One in nature , to belong sensibly . you ? grandpa killed the indians daddy killed the birds i'za just killing sorrows when all that's left are words
Hm I've always wanted to wear feathers... sounds really blissful. More natural understanding...? Explain?
I think you have a fascinating opportunity for exploration. My main concern for you is the possible lapses of memory, and so I strongly urge you again to be vigilant in order to see if that is actually happening. As to this spirit, if that's what it is, from what she's telling you she would appear to be a dead spirit of a person who was once an Indian. But you say you don't really believe this - what makes you think it's not true? It could be helpful to understand who she is if we knew what kinds of things she has told you to do - but only if you feel comfortable sharing those things. I have another suggestion: Keep a log - a diary - of all the things you experience with this spirit - whatever you can remember. At best, it might help you understand who/what she is, and at worst, it would make a fascinating story.
a more natural understanding . it comes day by day , in being touched lightly by family and friends (of the feather) . many simple blessings and one by one . serendipity . . .
I had an imaginary friend as well,as a child,she came to me during the difficult periods of my childhood and I believe was there to help me through those tough times. Does it seem like she is coming to you in times of stress or problems in your life? It could be either a spirit guide or just some type of coping mechanism . I was always very alone,very bookish,and dealt with a troubled childhood and I really don't know if I made up my friend or had some sort of spirit guide to help me through. But I do know she helped me through. So, your 15? and having mood swings. Oh,the mood swings I had at that age!!! That was my worst year! My mother said it was "hormonal" and the funny thing is ,my 14 year old daughter is having the same right now. Her brother calls her "Emo". But ,anyways,from my experience,the toughest time for a girl is that period between 13 and 17. There are so many physical and emotional changes happening all at once. I grew up in the early 70's and I have a great compassion for anyone growing up in this time. You (younger people) have it so much tougher. I never could have handled it! Anyhoo,as a parent of 2 teens around your age,I am worried! You sound like a decent,sweet,intelligent girl. I have to say I am VERY concerned about the fact that you are not remembering things and spacing out?! Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Can you talk to them? If my daughter had this problem,I would want to know. It could be nothing,but then again it could be a medical problem . Have you had a checkup? You sound pretty grounded and mature at your age and this blackout thing worries me. Sorry to sound all maternal ,but I am concerned for you,and I don't want to see anything bad happen to you. I liked the advice to "keep a journal". Start today! And if you are lucky enough to have caring parents,maybe talk to them and get things checked out just to make sure everything is okay with you. Take care of yourself! Sorry this is so long! You just brought out that Parental instinct in me. I DO CARE ! Peace and love, *Purple*
(Sorry guys I completely spaced on this thread.) Before she has told me things, like a repetitive chant, kill, kill, kill, kill, and sometimes the variation of kill yourself, kill yourself, etc. But it really hasn't been that way lately... Just last night I had a stupid mental breakdown (I really want these to stop...), and she basically pulled me out of it. Either that or I just fell asleep. I don't remember. (The whole memory lapse again.) But after last night, I feel recharged. A lot better. Like a whole new person. I get this frequently. But in the time of the breakdowns I'm tempted by old habits. Cutting and stupid stuff I would always, always regret. I guess it's getting way better, it's been like 5 months since my last time. I digress. The whole Indian thing... I honestly don't have a reason why I don't believe her, I just kind of... Don't. Ya know? Princesspeace - YES. Like every time I'm down, she's there. Like bam! lol. But it's not just down times, it's at school, when I'm wanting someone, or sometime along those lines. Your daughter is hormonal? Jeeze, I'm starting to believe every girl gets that. Lol, nothing new I know. Please try you best to get through to your son not to call her emo... Being called emo by classmates is one thing, but when a family member does it, it really screws with your head. (personal experience, fyi) I really don't want to tell someone around here... Some of my friends know a little about it, but if my family knew, wow I'd probably never see daylight. They flipped when they found out I'm not Christian, and a few other things. This would be the straw that breaks the camel's back. Lol. A journal... As in a diary type of thing? I'm no good at keeping up with those... But if you believe it helps, I'd give it a shot. Thank you so much for your words though, I feel less insane, lol. ^^ Love you all <33
I have a stepdaughter who used to cut herself sometimes when she was around your age - she has had a very hard life. For her it was due to brain chemical imbalances, and eventually she needed medication. Now she's 20 years old and doing much better - she's pursuing her love of art, and has a big heart for people with problems - because she can relate to them so well. She's one of my personal heroes. She also has "angels" taking care of her. But sometimes when kids cut themselves, it's not due to brain chemical imbalance. Sometimes they just have a hard time dealing with their feelings - that's probably how it was with you. But if you haven't had urges to do that for several months, it seems like you must be dealing better with things - that's wonderful. Life IS hard, Myra - I can attest to that. Sometimes it takes all the courage we can muster just to get out of bed in the morning. LOL But even when you think you can't - you can. I know - I've been there. I have seven kids - four of my own, and three step kids. My two boys call each other "Emo" for laughs. But I know it's different if someone is truly suffering. If your family can't handle your problems, it obviously just makes everybody's life harder when you confide in them - but you need to be able to talk to someone. You can talk to us, of course. I give you my solemn oath that I will not flip out. LOL I would maybe suggest that you could try talking to a school counselor, but I have no personal experience with this, so I don't know how that would be - maybe somebody else reading this thread knows more about this. But regardless, whether your spirit is a dead Indian or not, the fact that she is now caring for you and energizing you is a blessing. And if having her company enriches your life, all the better. Don't be a stranger, dear - drop by and see us every so often.
It's your spirit guide. You are lucky enough to hear it. You don't know much about what happens in the spiritual realm, and nor should you need to - your gift is for someone to help guide you without you needing to delve into it. It says things that are irrational quite often, and most times you will feel like you are the one creating that voice in your head - it's not you. It's the spirit guide's way of guiding you out of harm. Trust it has a pure intention for you, and listen to it without concentrating on trying to understand what the voice tells you - the more you listen, the more you will feel the connection you want. You don't need to tell anyone else, and can just keep it to yourself. It could cause you a lot of confusion if you do tell others. If you want a stronger bond, and one that makes you feel comfortable, meditate once in a while to try and open your ears in your mind in order to listen, and not try and speak/foretell what you think will be said. You're already a very lucky person.
