Love at First Sight...now what?

I had experienced something very mystical about a half a year ago. I met a hmong girl (never been attracted to asians) at a gas station where she worked and the moment we looked into each others eyes my mind went somewhere else similar to an out of body experience. I was in a moment of total and absolute bliss, similar to when I had a reborn experience. She gave me my cigs and my money back so obviously her mind was somewhere else too. She left a message at my work (i was in uniform at the time) so I went back to pay for them and I got her number.

At this point in time in my life I was going through a thing where I wasn't sure but I thought that I was supposed to become a shaman. When I talked to her on the phone I found out that both of her parents are shaman. This I found very weird because I doubted that anyone in this town would have any idea about such things. We talked about lots of things, including God. The other weird thing is that she pretty much told me about myself to a T. Even my best friends don't understand a thing about me. We both agreed that it was weird that we could find another person of such a similar mind in the same town out of all of the people on earth. (I'm pretty sure she was a refugee from the other side of the world).

I don't know if she experienced the same thing as me but she said she got a vibe from me that was unlike anything she has experienced. She made it clear that Shamanism is not the path that she wished to chose in her life. We made plans to meet for coffee after that but it didn't work out. Now fast forward to now and I have only talked to her once since. I have been totally afraid to talk to this girl and I don't know how she feels. I have finally come to the realization that shamanism is not my path so I know that all those coincidences didn't mean that I was supposed to be a shaman.

I have not been able to let go of the idea that I should be with this girl. She is as good as married in my mind. But that is not the way to live life. I need this girl. I have finally found true happiness within myself. (When we first met she was already at that point). So now I feel like an actual relationship would be possible.

What do I do? It has been quite a while since I talked to this girl and I don't even know what to talk about with her after experiening such deep stuff.

 

wow!!.. i cant believe i just read that.. its very similar in a way to something thats been ongoing in my life and thats kinda 'comin to a head' again just now. sorry ..i dont want to 'steal your thread.. just felt i should share my story with u..

.. i met a guy a couple of years ago at a beach party, that i felt weird about b4 going, he's also not the sorta guy i would be attracted to..but he seemed to represent a way of life i was intrested in.. we ended up spending most of the party together feelin so comfortable.. he said he felt he was going to meet someone before he went to the party. We swapped numbers and then i moved out of the area so i didnt see him again for a few months.. we didnt have so much contact ..but he kept appearing now and again in my dreams, (in phases i dream a lot very vividly..sometimes about foreevents or coming as kind of guidance) ..
on the day i decided to move back to the area, he decided to contact me to meet up..so i felt compelled .. again i felt i was meeting with someone familia.. later in the night he kissed me and i had an experience i cant really describe ..like id vanished.. or just everything was gone.. um kinda like a black out i was concious within but even that didnt exist.. i really dont mean that in som romanticy way... i forgot to ask him about it because i was so overwelmed.. he just said 'ur special' and walkd away.. we saw each other for a while and had a few other beautiful and unusual deep connections but we couldnt really find anything to talk about which ended up makin it uncomfortable for me... he then moved away and i was almost relieved in a way...
then after a few lunas i got a strong presence of him one day... he got in contact again the same day. he was in my mind a lot although we v rarely had contact. a long time after i dreamt i was at my parents house painting pictures of the sea, he was there silently ... i lived in a different country than my parents so i didnt see them... another few months by and i had an accident with circumstances that i ended up back at my parents for a while.. they decided we shud go on a holiday and by mad 'coincidence' he was living on the same island, just up the street from where we stayd!!!
apparently he'd also been thinking about me still.. i could 'see' him v clearly and i felt close ..
anyway i left.. we kept in touch a short while.. then recently a year later.. i realised he was almost gon from my mind.. so then boomf he called me .. i had a new number so...?/ .. now i keep thinking about him.. i'd like to be with him again... also,-im not sure he's as much aware and comunication seems stinted again. Think i'll just have to see what happens ...



also ive been aiming to find my happiness within.. i thought i was near but then i lost it a lil .. he has it and its freedom.


... i think that you should meet this lady again!!! good luck to u

 

ahh love at first sight, that how i felt when i met my boyfriend. He took my breath away and when our lips touched i felt like i couldn't breath. It was the most amazing feeling i have ever felt.

 

i think you should call her, it really sounds like you like her a lot. You guys could have something beautiful together!!

 

pick up the phone or go see her. dont let her get away