How do you tell the one you love.. when they have opened to you their heart and told you the truth that they are not sure they can be with you. How do you tell them that only in the deepest depths of your nightmares live those fears of never having them in your life to hold... of their existence being only a voice through a wire or words on a screen. How do you cope.. how do you dream.. how do you fill the void within yourself that feels as though it slowly consumes all the hope in life you ever held.. and how do you speak to them and tell them this.. when all they have done was be honest of their own heart. So you lock it away.. hold it and hide it from them.. even when they know your holding back and want to know because they still care.. you want to scream it to them.. to yell out for all the world to hear that you love them and want nothing more than to hold them until all the world returns to dust. But you hold it in.. you hide it away.. because you love them.. and want them to be happy.. even if it means not happy with you.. how in this world do you cope... when you feel the hope within you.. is dead.
I think you need to talk to someone about it if not her a close friend.Holding it all inside it will just completely overwhelm you and drive you insane.Maybe she needs to know regardless of her feelings about it etc.You've got to do what it takes to take care of yourself. Good luck.Hang in there
Oh hun i know what you mean and how you feel and i have a better understanding now of why you couldent tell me the other night about your feelins on the subject but know i love you now and always will if your loseing sleep cause of me just remember that i do love you and i do worry about you even more so now that i have a better understanding of why you dont sleep i wish i could explain in better wording how i feel about you but its hard you know but know that with all that i am i love you Sleep when you can darein and call me when you wake or before you go to bed maybe that will help ease your thoughts Hugs and kiss's
