So for a while now I've had this 'fear', I guess, that I might be gay, but I just kept telling myself it wasn't true. Not too long ago I overcame a part of that fear and decided to watch some gay porn and see if it turned me on. Well, it did. But where it gets confusing for me is that I still find straight porn hot. And there's still this girl at school that I have a crush on (I think?), and I still think of her when I well touch myself. I can even crack open a magazine with some hot bikini girls and it'll still help me get off. Is it possible that my fear of being different is causing me to somehow fool myself into thinking I like girls? Or is it pretty much a guaranteed sign that I'm bi if I watching gay and straight porn both help me get off faster?
I would not say that your alone in that. I once held a great deal of fear that I might be gay.. even to the point of creating an imagined point in my life to justify my fear. Since then I have overcome my fears and met a wonderful an attractive guy who I feel very strongly for and hope that we can go as far as anyone else can hope in life. Most people.. like myself.. create fears to justify a reason to not do something or to give themselves a way out so they cannot blame themselves if something goes wrong. I would honestly say that until you give yourself the chance to see if you can be aroused by someone who is both the same sex and the opposite sex then you will remain confused.. so I would say take the chance.. you gain nothing by fear and learn from everything in your life.. even if they turn out to be mistakes.
Hi Theres nothing wrong with being bi sexual that is to say attracted to members of both sex's. In reality all it probably means is that there are potentually more options available to you. Human sexuality varies enormousely obviously. I am a bit of a fetishist myself as I require articules of clothing to get off so to speak. So there you go my options are very constrained.
