I've been skipping classes...

I hate school. I am so incredibly disillusioned with the education system that I just don't even want to give them my time anymore. I'm trying so hard to convince myself that I will appreciate it later, that all I need to do is get my damn piece of paper that proves my worth in the world so that I can get a job above burger-flipper, so that I can be accepted by my boyfriend's family as a contributor to society, etc etc etc, but the total ABSURDITY of it all is getting me so down, I can barely move.
The worst part is that I am so lucky... My tuition is paid by the college as long as my mom works there. Trouble is, she's a housekeeper and the work is backbreaking. She gets no sleep because she is caring for my grandmother, who had a debilitating stroke last year and is practically in invalid. We're pretty much constantly broke because she is either paying my grandmother's bills or my school bills (because my job pays peanuts- $50 every two weeks, and I can't find any other work in this town short of prostituting myself or selling drugs that would pay better) which of course I feel shitty about, but what can I do?
Sometimes I just think I should quit school and go straight to work- maybe go back later when I realize how much I need that damn piece of paper. At least I would appreciate it then, and in the meantime, I could help my family.
But who the hell am I kidding? I live out in the sticks without so much as a license (don't even get me started on that mess...), so how do I get to work?
It's a funny little cycle, isn't it? You need a job to get money to get your license/buy a car/insure your car, but you need a car to get to work.
If it was summer, I could work at the farmer's market across the street.
Ugh, winter is such a nightmare.
[/pissing, moaning, and feeling sorry for myself]

 

I hated highschool and i went strait to a community college. didnt really like that either because i have a hard time enjoying being educated if you know what i mean. school is a good thing, though not for everyone. if you hate school right now but want that piece of paper that says you did go to school, well thats good. at least you know that you want it. maybe you wil work for a year or even 6 months and decide that i now want to go back and try. everyone will tell you, you wont go back once you leave. im rambling now, just go to school when you are ready. it will be worth your time then. just dont wait to late.

 

I agree. I dropped out right after the first quarter of my senior year, got my GED and now I'm at a community college. Which I hate just as much as high school. I skip class all the time, and have a semester to straighten up, fix my grades, or I'm outta the house. The terrible part of it is, is that I can afford a room to rent, or small apartment but my job is seasonal and so about 4 months out of the year I have no money to pay for that room/apartment....

 

Ok heres my advice, just dont go there and then go to your friends houses and smoke dope and play records that's what I did until I was 24 and now I have my own Jewelery shop that I bought and two jewellers that work for me in Italy

 

No smoking for me, thanks. I have allergies.
I'd eat a brownie, tho.
But yeah, I wish I had the courage to drop out, but I would feel like an ass since my mother has already sacrificed so much so I could go...
And anyway, sitting around on a couch getting high isn't really my idea of a good time. I want to work the land. (See a previous post called "I want to start a farm...") I want to be my own boss and have nature be my office... There's some really toxic work environments out there...

My current plan has been to get my bachelor's degree in Biology (concentration in Biomedical Science) and become a vet tech, like I was all jazzed to do since I was 15, but now, more for a way to get the cash necessary to start farming than because it's what I feel passionate about doing. With a bachelors in biology, I could also do some lab work, which I have been known to enjoy, but I wouldn't want to get much more advanced than that. Science has a tendency to get real scary real fast...

Anyway, I'm rambling. Long story short, I'm not dropping out, but fuck I wish I was...

 

i feel the same way you do.. i finished high school, went to college and got kicked out because i never went to class because college just isn't for me. i have to go to college though if i want to do anything spectacular with my life and plus my mom counts on me to get through. so now i'm taking online classes and planning on going to the college i got kicked out of this fall.