cant sleep panic attack

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  1. veroness

    veroness There's only one :)

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    my dad and me and my brother and sister are going to italy in june for 2weeks into july. i would love more than anything to go to italy but i think 2 weeks is too long. i think i wouldnt do well on a plane and my dad said since his parents house is too small, me and my sister would stay at his sisters. i dont speak fluent italian but i can understand lots of words but being in a home with a family ive only seen once when i was 3 months old freaks me out. i trust them but i dont think 2 weeks not speaking fluently to my family will be fun. i want to go to italy when im older and know more italian and know i will have a good time. i feel so bad telling my dad i dont want to go but i really think a better time to go will come up in my lifetime.

    also during this time the rainbow gathering will be taking place. i would rather go there and grow and meet new people that i can fluently understand and see a national forest. there are also many festivals going on while ill be in italy if i go, that i dont want to miss.

    i think my decison not going is selfish but i dont want to waste my older borthers money for a ticket there and cry everyday and not have a good time. i dont know what to do and i cant go to sleep. im freaking out.

    any help?
     
  2. Aristartle

    Aristartle Snow Falling on Cedars Lifetime Supporter

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    S'il te plaît mon chère, débobinez-vous.

    Chill out. Why are you anxious exactly?
     
  3. jerry420

    jerry420 Doctor of everything Lifetime Supporter

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    you know,
    you really have nothing to worry about...you will have family with you...secondly...a rainbow gathering in all honesty pales in compairison to the mighty majesty of the colosseum and many more monuments...a raibow gathering happens every year...italy happens only once a lifetime for some...
     
  4. veroness

    veroness There's only one :)

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    i dont want to upset my dad because hes real into visiting his family in italy since he doesnt have a lot of money. but i want to go to this awesome festivals and that im scared and a little excited to see what its like to live with a whole bunch of people ive never met (rainow gathering)
     
  5. soaringeagle

    soaringeagle Senior Member

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    well like u said youd have a much better tme there when you were more prepared for the trip, and you had other plans, for the gathering and all which are also important to you, just be honnest with them and tell em u feel like youd feel very out of place not being fluent and staying with ppl u hardly know and can barely talk to, tell them your plands are important to you and that you hope to make the trip to italy someday when your more able to communicate
    be honnest that its a huge source of anxiety for you and is keeping you up at night
    might also help if u tell em something like i'm planning on studying italisan the next 2 years and going after that or something
     
  6. Aristartle

    Aristartle Snow Falling on Cedars Lifetime Supporter

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    I think it's pretty important to visit family. Making plans to do something else, and not going to visit your family would be a disaster.
     
  7. mystical_shroom

    mystical_shroom acerbic

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    Yeah, how about I'll go to Italy in your place and pretend I am you...
    I wouldn't pass up going to Italy..hell, I wouldn't even pass up going out of state...couldn't imagine passing up going to ITALY...
     
  8. treehuggerT

    treehuggerT Member

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    Go to Italy. It will be way better than you think it will be. Don't pass up this opportunity.
     
  9. veroness

    veroness There's only one :)

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    i talked to my older brother who is buying the tickets and he said ill be able to come home on the 1st of july which was really nice. but heres a new developing problem. i talked with my younger brother and sister and realized my dad will be leaving us as soon as we get there to go see his italian friends and fuck some chicks and hang out with them all while me and my siblings will be by ourselfs with people we've only met once. i understand a good amount of italian but cant speak it fluently. i feel bad for my older brother who s paying for it all. i really dont want to be couped up in a house all day cooking with people i dont understand. i want to see the beauty in italy if i do go and not by looking out a window...
     
  10. DroopySnoopy

    DroopySnoopy The ORIGINAL Dr. Droop

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    I can't imagine missing out on a chance to go to such a beautiful country, but I understand your reasoning. All you can do if you really want to stay behind is tell them the truth, be up front about it. But if you do go, just try and make the best of it. I can picture me being in the same situation, surrounded by a bunch of folks I don't quite understand, and it seems like a lot of fun actually. You can laugh it off later on.

    Most people don't get to go overseas like this, if you pass on an opportunity like this, it just seems kind of .... I don't know, spoiled in a way. 99% of us would do anything for an opportunity like yours. I say go for it.
     
  11. happy_hooker

    happy_hooker Member

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    go to italy. there's a real good chance, first of all, that your family speaks english, at least a little. and you will have your sister with you, so that helps.
    look, there are gatherings all the time, and, imh, they kind of suck, so i think you are better off jetting to italy for a couple weeks. and if you still dont want to go, i'll go on your behalf. i have been DYING to go back to italy!!
     
  12. veroness

    veroness There's only one :)

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    ive decided i will go. ill give it all a chance and after all if i dont like it, i wont go back and thats money i dont have to spend. it is family and i have a very weak connection with mine so maybe it will tighten a bit with this trip. i had a change of heart i guess...
     
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