peaceful...i'm about as peaceful as you can be while going to military college. i don't see a problem with being aggressive in my actions. i don't intentionally go out and hurt people with violence or words. i don't necessarily see fighting as low as a person can go. at times, its good to get your ass knocked around every now and then. its made me stronger to have been jumped, to have had a knife pulled on me. shit, i was even chased by former friends when i had a tear in my hamstring. shit happens and its only made me stronger. i don't go out and try to start fights, and at times you can use other means of getting around having to fight - but thats not always possible and i'll be damned if i'm going to take a beating without fighting back. or maybe i just haven't reached that spiritual level you guys talk about - then again, maybe i don't see it as something i want to achieve.
I used to be pretty aggressive. I got beat up at home a lot when I was a kid, so I took it out on other kids. I was a jerk. A half dozen years of intense kickboxing and spiritual growth has led me to be almost a pacifist. I don't think anyone would be rude to me. I wouldn't put up with it. I don't think that makes me anyway less peaceful. I stick up for myself with all kinds of love and compassion. Conflict happens though. I deal with it. I haven't in a while come across a situation where I'd need to resort to fighting. It could happen though. I certainly wouldn't stop sticking up for myself if someone got stupid and belligerent. They gotta check that.
Actually last week I thought I was going to get jumped. This guy in a gas station came up and started talking about beer. I was like yeah cool. He then offered me coke. I turned him down. As I was leaving he was standing outside the store and said 'hey.' I was ready for it, and then he just gave me his number. You gotta do what'cha gotta do.
I'm a pretty peaceful person, although I cuss a lot so people may get the wrong impression. I can't help it, it's just how I talk.
What lead me to how Peaceful I am now, was actually all the fights I've been in to. It all started at such a young age with a certain group. 2 years later us 2 groups were still getting into it, and it got the point where they got a gang member, who obviously got his gang on us. (Bloods) We didn't resort to calling another gang, but at the time I was good friends with a really pretty girl who had some members of the Latin Kings manhandled. Well, I use to have a Huge Temper, and as ashamed of myself as I am today, I smacked her one day. Out of anger......... Well, needless to say the Latin Kings were also on our backs. And if you know anything about gang history, those two gangs tie in pretty well. Instead of grabbing a gang on our side, we held weapons. We started fleeing and were constantly paranoid. It was NOT fun at all. Constantly looking over our shoulders, scared of every slow moving car, any group of kids, pretty much anything in general. They went to my friend's house and jumped him and ransacked his house. They caught me alone and jumped me, broke my hand. They got pretty much all of us at one point in time. So finally I decided to just not give a shit about my pride anymore, about fights, about anything regarding violence. I kept a low profile for the remaining 3 or so months I stayed in that area, and then I moved. When I moved I was a completely different person. I'm really glad I made this change, and I changed for the better too. What helps me the most is probably Meditation, and Ganja here and there. I only toke once per month, sometimes once every 2 months, just to keep the meaning of it. The Nature coincides with the rest of the assisting factors. Nothing better than Meditating while high, in a field of beautiful flowers overlooking a lake. Peace and Love, John.
Before my daughter was born i was fighting a lot with a lot of people around me but now that she is born she is the most important thing in my life. And ive stopped fighting and started being more peaceful.