About a month ago, I had what was basically a breakdown. I would just stay up late and think about how crappy the world is... Everything that sucks about it. I won't go into details, but it sucked. I noticed how much the world has changed, how everyone is in too much of a rush to love one-another, everyone just looks after themselves nowadays. It was when I realized... I want to be different. I want to help people. Now, I have a job as a customer service rep for a big company, which in my mind is helping people. People who have been screwed by this large corporation will be asking ME for help, and I will be able to solve their problems. It's not much, but it helped me greatly. I someday hope that I can travel the world and help people just for the fuck of it... Why should everyone have a shitty life? If I can make myself happy by helping someone solve their problems, then that's what I want to do. The moral of this is basically - don't give up. I was as hopeless as it gets. I was suicidal, thinking that nobody loved me or cared what I did for them. Now, I'm getting through it by helping people who DO care, helping people who might be in a financial crisis with children to feed, and bills to pay. I feel like I've turned around 180. So can you. Just know that it WILL happen, you just need to work for it.
Right on, twizz! You called it! That's a big part of being a happier person; getting out of that world of you and helping other people in need. I think i needed being reminded of that myself.
Congratulations man. I kind of witnessed some indications of where you were but thought I saw the beginnings of a drive to help other people. I'm glad for you that you may well have found your own therapy.
