Purify

What can you suggest i do to purify my extreme hate for everyone.

You see, i feel that everyone hates me, judges me, etc

basically i think i might have a gradiation of Social Anxeity

however, because i fear negative judgment, i feel i cant trust anyone

Despite my lack of trust and my fear, i feel that people think im stupid, worthless, etc

so that triggers bitter hatred

sometimes, this hatred becomes so severe that i glorify harming those who judge me.

I dont want this, i want to purify this, i know you may say this belongs in another forum, but i believe meditation can help purify this, medication i think will only make this suffering worse

I want to be loving, compassionate, i dont want to hate or have the lust to spill blood. I just want to rid myself of this parasite.

Please, help me

 

Try this beloved Action Lad:

http://www.buddhanet.net/metta_vp.htm

 

thank you very much

this should help me out alot.

 

You're only 17. You're going to be reborn several times before you settle into what your life will become. Pay attention.

The term "angry young man" is an old one. Most of us were angry about something at your age. We survived it, so will you.

The fact that you WANT to change, means you're getting ready to shed the old skin.

Be patient. Pay attention.



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People will judge you. Accept it. Move on.

 

the op seems to want more advice than simply
' just deal '

but to each their own and maybe you're helping a person or two out there. more than likely, with that kind of help... no
ha ha h ha ha
i'm just saying, the OP seems to have an idea in depth as to what his problem is, consciously anyways. .. ...
basically if your post disappeared he'd have to just deal anyways. ..

 

Spiritual advice is not meant to be given in essays. I could talk for an hour and the essence of it would be, the world is what it is, accept it. Anyway, I don't need to defend myself to you, considering you hardly had anything constructive to add to the discussion.

 

I recommend mantra work to change your basic cognitive vibration, such as White Tara.

 

To purify, in it's simplest definition, is letting go of what you have attached to yourself.

It becomes a movie of how empty your garage used to be, as opposed to all the crap you have packed in there now. The car has to sit out in the driveway. No room for it.

It occurs over the lifetime, and indeed, for many lifetimes. Attachment evolves as you do. You hardly notice it.

To know "God", is to slay this dragon once and for all.



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All words you have typed are help to me.

It at least gives me faith in humanity.

Although i still have re-occuring spells of suffering and hatred for myself, i eventually let go, and return to normal.

I guess i have made progress, and the loving action of helping people, devoting my entire consciousness to help another, even if it is simply listening, has dissolved this hatred i feel.

Thank you.

 

You are right. Drugs supress symptoms and all have bad side effects. Yoga and meditation can help you. Also improve your diet since a bad diet can contribute to anger. Animals are very upset when they are being killed. See this site on Finding Happiness to see how an MD got into yoga (which includes meditation) and it changed his life. So he wrote the book, Yoga as Medicine. You should avoid negative people and maybe just avoid people if you can for now.

 

Just remember that we are all one. When you look into the eyes of another human being, he is you and you are him. We all have the Self, God, consciousness, in us so we should all love each other.