still tripping randomly?

dude like i said sorry for calling you insane. I dont know what you mean about the nice person stuff...no one ever said anything about that, and of course being a nice person doesn't make you insane. Don't know where you got that from but anyway.

Mild visuals while not tripping...I dont know. It doesn't sound good to me but then again Ive never done LSD.

Are we bad people?? I dont know but you said that before you were now an "expert" at nailing whether someone was a "bad person" or not...which I would beg you to reconsider. Not all that meets the eye is true. And people could just be off the right path but not necessarily be mean people.

again, sorry.

 

apoligy accepted

 

he's loopy as fuck now and he was fine the day before. its fuckin textbook schizophrenia to a T

acid is a powerful drug, and just because you and your buddies are stable minded folks that arent suseptable to going crazy doesnt mean you know everything about it. acid didnt make YOU crazy, but all i know is that he was completely normal the day before he tripped. then he went all messiah complex and then 2 days later he had a psychotic break and had to get taken to the hospital. they sedated him and wrote it off as an acid overdose (2 days after he tripped) and sent him home.

so there's a negligable chance that acid will throw you off the deep end. if you're unstable, dont trip.

 

From my personal experience 'insanity' and 'crazy' are nothing
more than when you feel abnormally good. And certain people
around you think that you should instead feel abnormally bad.

 

I've been in messiah complex for a very long time.
I don't think its abnormal at all. I think it's actually normal.
It's actually what I consider 'being an artist' to be. All artists should
aim all their work to the purpose of essentially providing some 'divine'
energy to people.

The wikipedia page on schizoprhenia, scizotypal disorder. Even some
aspects of autism describe me almost exactly as well. I think the thing
that most people negate about the whole 'schizophrenia' thing is that.
Delusions are just the product of having a hyperactive imagination and
hallucinations are a product of having a REALLY good imagination. Your
so good you get to see what your thinking. It seems to me 'schizophrenia'
is hardly debilitating, but rather it's just being able to use more portions
of your brain. 'Schizophrenia' only becomes debilitating when you turn to
'paranoid schizophrenia' as in, your paranoid about these new functions
of your brain, your afraid of your own brain. And certainly you can't
live like that, thats like being afraid of your own shadow. But absolutely
nothing is wrong with living in a reality that is created completely by
your own brain. In fact, FAR more people do this than you probably realize.
It only becomes an issue if you create a bad reality for yourself.

I used to say to people, the first glimpse of 'true enlightenment' in
US society is extreme manic depression. Because everything is quite
fucked up here. If your the single person in your social circle who got a
clear glimpse of it just once, you would think your a messiah. And
quite honestly, I would agree that you are! You have to teach your
sleeping society members what is going on.

The only thing about that 'messiah complex' is once you get out of
your immediate social circle and into some bigger ones. You quickly
find there are many other 'messiahs'. And even IMO full blown Christ
reincarnates. Many Many of them.

From what little you have said Jack. I would deduce the only problem
with your 'schizo' friend is that he did not get away from people emitting
negative energy quick enough to get a breath of fresh air.

 

to be insane means that you are unlike the rest of society. if a doctor says you are insane it is because you are not 'normal'.

to be sane means to be normal - i am not sure why anyone would want to be normal. it is our uniqueness that makes life interesting.

check out this site... wonderful site - supported by the church of scientology.

www.cchr.org pay special attention to this page http://www.cchr.org/index/5285/5353/

psychiatrists are frauds.

please spread the word!

 

amen brother!

 

That is one thing that I always agreed on with Ron L Hubbard
and one thing I do respect about scientology. Their crusade on
psychiatrics.

rest of scientology to me though just seems like an over-elaborated
vipissana meditation that doesn't let you make up your own story at
the end

 

^^^ agreed

 

whatshappenin23 says he has OCD so he should try some psychedelics. I've read a study before showing them to be a cure.

 

whatshappening, we have a lot in common (I don't have the ocd to your extent, at least not anymore)... This is strange because, I am the baby of the family too, I am pursuing a music career too, and I experienced some of the same OCD symptoms for a long time... Here's what I did:

I used to think I had a variety diseases like Diabetes (despite being in great shape), Thought I was going blind, Testicular Cancer, Going deaf, STD's, and bad things happening to my loved ones--basically all the things I feared most... I had all of these symptoms REAL bad, it was terrible as you probably know.

First thing to do (I'm not sure if you do this) is to STOP GOOGLING ILLNESSES! This will fuck you over like it fucked me. On the internet you will always find the worst case scenario and I bought into that shit, I just got so terrified, several times I nearly passed out because I thought I had some sort of disease.
But you will think "what if I actually do have some sort of illness, I don't want to wait till it's too late". NO! resist the urge to Google or look up any symptom, chances are you don't have it just like you didn't have any of the other illnesses in the past. Just say to yourself that you will go to the hospital if you are bleeding to death--just forget about it and move on.

Second is to stop watching news (or limit yourself). The news (on tv at least) sells people on negative stories about people dying, illnesses, etc. Not watching the news helped me greatly.

Third is to get something to occupy your time (girls work well). Boredom made my mind make up illnesses and think that I had cancer or my mom is dying even though she is in good health. So I started to work out (which makes you feel great). Or just go and do something to stretch yourself, ANYTHING. Just do something positive and you will stop thinking about it.

I know exactly how you feel it's the worst thing in the world. You are finally having fun and somehow you always think of something really terrible that might happen...I know it. The very best advice I can give you is just LAUGH at yourself like it's a joke... "Yeah haha, I have cancer or AIDS, what a joke" and move on. Just laugh man, don't buy into your own bullshit. Just realize that you are not in control and if something happens, then it happens, 'till then don't waste your time worrying about stupid shit, it will only make you unhappy.

It was crazy cause one night, I was watching TV, feeling like shit worrying about ridiculous things when this one MTV True-Life episode came on, it was about people living with OCD and there was this one girl with the EXACT same symptoms as you and I...I then realized how retarded I was being and I just started to laugh, the next day I felt a little better and everyday I felt better and better.

I really hope this helps! I got over it and so can you (and I'm doing and feeling great now). I'm actually glad that I ran into this obstacle, it really taught me a lot about life.

 

I know just what you mean.