i think im a sociopath

After watching all films with hannibal lecter story in it, i wanted deeper info into his personality and character.Apart from what was obvious during the films, some can only be found in the books (which i have not read). Anyway, many sites describe him as a sociopath < now i had heard this word before but i had to look up the meaning. Allthough not all of the discriptions relate to me, very many do. I dunno, im not scared no'r bothered - because i dont murder people and i still have my judgement of right and wrong. ALOT of the time i know im right and people keep telling me im not, i look at average people as a different league as me < i find them far less superior and i like to toy with them. i am almost always bored, i have high IQ but i failed at school. i am very closed off with my emotions, i only open up on what i think to very very close people - but emotions stay in me, or i rarely post them here. I hate most people i encounter, and i carry some other characteristics of a sociopath.

hmn, what do you guys think? =/

 

I think I'd like some liver with fava beans and a nice chianti.

 

to jail with you, mister.

 

i admire the character of hannibal lecter greatly, his intelligence and self confidence is ever so inspiring - and i dont know, during all of the films i could somehow relate to the way he expressed himself/his thoughts, and i can possibly see myself picking up the rest of it. i dont know, me, im no serial killer... its his vanity of intelligence that resembles my mind the most. or i dunno, maybe i just like him too much and im finding all the things that could possibly ressemble me to him. =/

 

What do i think? I think that you need to quit "hating most people you encounter." You're attitude is all wrong in my opinion. No you don't sound like you're a sociopath, it sounds like you need to just lighten up. If you don't change you're attitude somebody is going to set you straight one day like this kid i knew back in high school. He walked around school like he knew everything, acted like people weren't even worth talking to, hated most people in general like it seems you do as well. Well, i guess my friend got sick of the guy's attitude and constantly acting like an overall ass to people and decided a good beating would set him straight. I'm personally against starting fights with people but people like that have it coming.

 

^ this is what i talk about as general public. you do not understand what i mean, theres people i meet that i like, rare characters and people that i find interesting... others are just copies of copies, sheep to say - no interest just bs, no brain - just tv, nothing. also im not affraid of fighting, ive beaten up and been beaten up before, its no biggie and a broken jaw and a black eye will not change my oppinion. go pray little sheep

BAAAAH BAAAAH

 

Then you're not really against starting fights are you?

 

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....Shit thats me. Seriously. Wow I need help

Tony Montana (scarface) is my idol. And I want to be just like him, even if I have to kill or treat others badly.

But I know its a bad thing, But it's like Im two different people sometimes. Can anyone help me with this one?

 

I really don't detect this brand of arrogance from green.

 

I think being a sociopath isn't nearly as bad as they say.

 

^ hmn yeah, i mean you dont hear about a sociopath fireman saving 4 kids, instead you hear sociopath serial killer guns down 20 people.

its just propaganda, and that some become killers dont mean all will.




oh and btw no i dont walk around my school pretending im better than everyone else < i dont need to pretend. im not smugg to ppl because i dont know most of the people there and i try not to judge too much from what i observe, well since many young ppl put up a different character in front of theyre friends. anyway, once i get to know them thats when hopelessness hits in. i talk to everyone who talks to me, i dont ignore people. yet i constantly see likeliness to some other person i know, similar characters etc, esp those who act fake.

anyway now im wondering if i was born like this, or it developed in my younger years.

 

i have also wondered if i have sociopath characteristics. I tend to not give a shit about anyone other than the people who have proven something special, then im all for you. but very few people can prove anything. everyone just talks themselves out of any problem and i cant fucking stand it. people are strait up fucking liars. i tend to say "i dont trust you, your full of shit" rather than "you seem nice id like to know you better" for that i guess i dont know many people. Im a nice guy really but there is a side to me that doenst give a fuck. you can say what you want and act how you feel but still im gonna have a problem with you. cant think now ill post later..

 

^ Maybe you read a little too much of Ms. Rand?

 

Ms. Rand?

 

broony i feel like that too

 

i would like to tell you that i felt like a sociopath when i was your age, too... you have plenty of time to change your attitude about things. A lot of it comes with the age. if you really think that you have a severe psychopathic personality disorder, then perhaps you should see a psychiatrist and a couple of psychologists, but if you believe it's something you can overcome by yourself via perspective change, then that's the option i recommend. otherwise, you're just going to end up on a lot of prescription drugs that transform your personality and make you into a sort of substance-dependent creature that you may or may not really want to be.
i also know a number of people who take pleasure in feeling tragically misunderstood.
i think it's important to understand what about people rubs you the wrong way. if you are bright and reach out to people and spark up interesting conversation, the kind of people you can have "hope" for will surface as well. realize that if you never put faith into people, chances are they will give you little reason to. you have to take the firt step...

 

Do real sociopaths know that they are sociopaths? i wonder =\

 

your no "sociopath!" we (psychotherapists) don't use that term any more; the word "sociopath" has been so twisted and abuse by popular culture, that it has lost all of its orginal meaning. the term we use now for "sociopath" is "antisocial personality disorder." AND, YOUR NOT THAT! you want a label for yourself? ok, how about, this one: "schizoid personality disorder." and, NO THAT IS NOT SCHIZOPHRENIA! your not schizophrenic at all! spd (schizoid personality disorder) is in no way related to schizophrenia. you stated that you have a high i.q. and you failed at school. that is quite the norm, for anyone who is creative and unconventional. i don't think you hate people. i think you see how scared and weak most people are, and what you hate is the masks they ware. like i said, they are scared and weak; that is why most people ware masks and/or are "sheep". i would recommend that you read the book "steppenwolf" by hermann hess. in that book the main chacter (the steppenwolf) is an spd. i think it would do you alot of good to start on a spiritual path. i think buddism would be the place for you to start. you seem like a good guy, with a good heart; i really think getting spiritual guidance is what you need at this time in your life.

 

read steppenwolf, read siddhartha by hesse.
that's enough to save anyone from sure insanity.