Happily Gay; Unhappily Confused About Some People

I live in the boonies, I'm afraid. Middle of nowhere. NEarest neighbors are elderly, or come up only seasonally. And when I find a group of people to chill with, I'm left with a new quandary. What do I say?

Two of them(of which there are nine) are attractive, one of which I'm madly crushing on. The one I'm crushing on would probably be okay with me being gay, as he's a really nice guy, but everyone else? I don't know. So I come to you, asking your opinions on the subject.

So far, myself and one of them have sung love songs to eachother, albeit jokingly, I've been given a massage(yay), they've threatened to plow eachother countless times, yet this is all... Playful? I'd think they were bi if what they said when I tried out some social engineering on most of them didn't turn this theory down.

'How do you feel about blah political issue blah gay marriage blah.

Gay marriage is always frowned upon! In fact, their dad is voting for Mitt Romney simply because he doesn't give any gay rights.

I'm not the straightest guiy. I have emo hair, I highlight it random colors. Bright hawaiian shirts and a female's all size bucket hat. But I don't want to lose the people I've met(who are into what I'm into. WoW, LARPing, D&D), or if I should live with the mild oppressive feeling I get not knowing that they would hate me for what I am.

One of them has even called my ability to pop my arm out of it's socket 'yummy' (The one I'm crushing on, no less!) Do straight people call things yummy? Do straight people sit on eachother's laps?

I think the whole lot of them are in the closet, personally.

And before you tell me to stop hanging with them, consider this. Through LARPing, I've lost 9 pounds in two weeks. I've made a group of friends who accept me as a facade of straightness, and these are the only friends I have IRL outside the internet. Consider these words carefully.

MY question.

Do I tell them I'm gay and risk rejection or do I kepe it to myself and feel oppressed and hot for the guy I'm crushing on?

 

Just be yourself. Go out sometime with just you and the guy you're 'crushing on'. It'll become more clear when it's just you two and not everyone else is around. Eventually if it was meant to be, things will fall in place. And if you are so worried about what these people might do if you tell them you are gay, then maybe rethink what kind of 'friends' these are. Real friends couldn't care less and will still accept you for being you. If they don't, then I guess they aren't such good friends afterall.

 

Aye, but you see, where I live... Well, finding friends my age is rare, let alone people not my age. All of my friends are online because no one is around me.

Simply ditching nine newfound people... I'd feel like such a dolt. And I know that whole argument, and I'm saving it for a time when I'm more their 'good' friend then just a friend. Afterall, that was the first day meeting them. Maybe if I get to know them better they'll be able to see me for me, you know?

As to waiting to try and catch my crush alone? He lives next door to the people. And he doesn't have a computer. But he himself has given me several tiny pointers which'll either lead to him being an extremely flirtatious teenager who flirts with everyone, to a bisexual guy in the closet.

Edit* Technically, it was the third time meeting the crush, second time meeting three of them, and first time meeting a couple of them...

 

i would tell them. when one of my friends told me i just put that as a side note cause he explained that the only difference between him and me was that he liked dudes and i didnt. if they have been good friends to you i doubt that it would affect the relationship between you and them.