Looking for meaning

Hi,
I'm 21 years old, I go to uni, I have been to 4 continents, I have a beautiful apartment, wonderful friends and loving parents, but for some reason I feel like my life is a complete and utter failure.

I have no dreams. I don't really want anything, and because I don't want anything enough to fight for it I just feel like life is passing me by and I have nothing to show for it.

My only passions in life are travelling and photography, it's only when I'm travelling I feel really happy. I once went to Australia and Asia on my own for four months and I have never been so happy, so free. When I was there I had wants, I did things I never thought I would do, I took a PADI for one, and I slept in a bunkbed with people having sex in the bunk below. I miss it, I miss the freedom, the adventure, the people.

Now I'm just stuck here, I almost have a bachelor's degree in political science. I might be going to England to take my master... either in journalism or photojournalism. A lot of people would probably be envious of some of the things I have done, some of you probably think I'm a spoiled brat for complaining and I agree. But I can't help but feel as if my life is... meaningless.

I just saw a japanese movie, the main character died in her 20s but I was jealous of her... she had succeded and she had lived the life she wanted. I don't know what I want, I just go one day at the time, doing what I always do, nothing changing, stuck in a boring and hopeless circle.

I want change, I want dreams and I want to be happy. I just don't know how.

 

People shouldn't compare their problems to yours, because however we scale the size of a problem in our life, its genuinely important to you no matter what.

So forgive me, but what is a 'candidate' in political science?

Hey guess what babe- Im the same way. In that I was just suffering from depression up until last month when I was forcing myself into a life that wouldnt fit me. So you DO know what it is you love, your passions and your dreams are decidedly less scripted than most peoples' dreams...and thats AWESOME! Why dont you move school to Australia? If youre almost done? Go where you KNOW you love.

 

If I knew how to be happy, I would tell you....I have everything I ever wanted. I am not happy. I made my piece with it. I dont think I was destined to be happy. And its as simple as that.
Good luck with everything.

 

Sounds like you already know what will make you happy: travelling and photography.

You just need to find a way to make that happen.

I do not know enough about you or where you want to travel to give you any advice.

 

Wrong! You can be happy. You just need to figure what is missing and go get it.

 

um, I feel like you almost everyday and people don't understand either. I have loving parents, they support me when I don't work and don't care, they always encourage me, believe in me, etc. everything, I have been to all continents, travel a lot lived in a lot of different countries seen so much in my life at 23 I go to college in the U.S which is already hard for citizens and even harder for non-citizens, I am healthy smart and cute, well.. anybody could say I'm a spoiled brat too if I complained I wasn't happy but.. I complain I'm not happy a lot - not to others, butto myself.. I don't know what I am missing and I don't know what I want but I am not fulfilled so.. yeah, who knows.

 

There is only one thing I find great meaning in...and great comfort.

Non nobis, Domine, non nobis, sed nomini Tuo da gloriam

 

Perdóneme yo sólo hablo español. ¿Yo no exactamente lo entendí, Quizá usted podría hablar inglés?

 

Non nobis, Domine, non nobis, sed nomini Tuo da gloriam
Not to us, Lord, not to us, but to Your Name give glory

 

If you feel you're stuck in a rut, then doing the same thing over and over isn't going to help. Finding peace in the world is hard, and it get's harder listening to everyone else advice for you. We live in a society which tells us all we need to have a perfect marriage, a great job, and 2 kids by the time we're 30.

Well that's not for everyone. And it takes some of us a longer time to find what makes us happy. The best advice I can offer is, don't take anyones advice who's life you wouldn't want to emulate. I've had the most unhappy, people I know constantly give me advice that never worked out.

The problem was obvious, and I'm only starting to find clarity by seeing more of the world. I'm much more a vagrant bum then I was 3 years ago. I didn't have a permanent residence for most of last year and yet, I'm much more complete.

I'm not a roots person. I'm an experiences person. And that's led me to leading the life of kinda a bum. I'm happier this way. Perhaps the same is true of you.

 

I really need to learn spanish.

 

^^^^^



You can learn!

 

Hablo mejor que escribo o leí. Las traducciones son duras para mí cuando puedo ver a la persona que habla.

Entonces vaya hace su trabajo. Usted puede.

 

If it’s your dream to travel and take pictures then become a freelance photo journalist, which will allow you the freedom to travel and take photos without the rigid restrictions set by being under contract to produce.



Or become a Paparazzi and popup out of some sewer to photograph Britney Spears







Hotwater

 

Si puedo !!!!
Per aspera ad astra!

 

Hehe, you're a good guy Hot.

 

Definitely.

 

Si eso es lo que usted necesita hacer. Usted lo debe hacer.

 

This is great advice.

 

Si...

Per aspera ad astra!!!!