I feel the need to proclaim this: I am very very young, I am very very little, and I know very, very little. I have hardly opened my eyes to see beyond the spindly kaleidoscope projected veins of my own facial tissues struck by light particles. It was only last week I started realizing how much I don't know, and I think I will keep realizing that as long as my ears perk to foreign tongues and my foreign tongue stumbles on words not shaped to fit into the mouth of a Scandinavian girl with tendencies balanced more toward her Oregonian geographical historical kin who she has no right to claim connection to than to the herring-eating rhubarb-pudding loving urbanite Danish ancestors... Off topic but The point being I admit it!! I will be arrogant and refuse to listen and bang my head against brick walls and offend all sorts of people whom I ought to trade my left hand to for the honor of shaking their's, but somewhere inside and right now I don't claim to be an expert in ANYTHING, and want to only humble myself to every other conscious being on this planet and every other one too. Maybe as much as it devastates my pride and puts up my fists, I do need to be told again and again and again and again that I do not understand I do not even UNDERSTAND what I don't understand and I never will. Perhaps I wouldn't admit it, maybe it's true. Try try try. Shanti shanti shanti.
sunfree thats exactly it, you ARE young!! you still have so much to look forward to & to learn. dont be hard on yourself.. you have only been on this earth for 20 years [i assume] you cant say you wont understand things, because, eventually you most probably will! you could hit 50 and think.. fuck.. and have a total epiphany =p i like your writing btw =] peace xx
