Ambition in the sense of becoming 'successful' - Yes, no ambition there. Ambition in the sense of improving on myself, internally - No, I never want to let go to that.
The drinking has definitely been cut back to just a social thing now, but the lamenting is still going pretty strong. Wish it was the other way round. I have quite a few opportunities to make money here but I am happy enough with what I am doing at the mo. I never really amass a lot of possesions cos I like to move about. The more I tend to have, the more limits I feel they put on my freedom. I did start making a home with my girl in Italy but when the time came, I just left it all behind. Easy come, easy go. If I really need this stuff, I can buy it again.
You know, no one is really entitled to success or erectile dysfuntion. In the Michael Bolton sense of the word ambition is just a branch of epilipsy. Also I have twenty dollars in my pocket and I want to poop on an old man's forhead. Biscuits with Preparation-H do no taste like apple pie nor does Tommy Lee Jones have an erection.
yep caused by massive depression, yippee. i did actually give up on everything save for sleep and video games... didnt work out so good (failed 2/3 classes n all)
Lost my ambition? Never! Walked away from everything I owned to start again with a new goal? You bet I have. I am not motivated by money anymore. Experiences mean more to me than a lot of useless stuff. New goals are always there for me. But the other stuff... I do not give a dam. You can't take it with you.
Hell yea! I most definitely lost all of my previous ambitions... to replace them with much more significant goals.
i dunno if i could call it ambition either,,, but i have completely walked away from life several times and each time i do i walk further away from society and all the bullshit.... unfortunately i seem to have run out of places to escape too but i am such a fine upstanding citizen n all here they wont lemme outta the borders... i really cant get much further out and am fine with it , however i am finding the last couple weeks to just be a complete down time,,, not sad, not unhappy just blah... perhaps it is because it is the first winter i have been home n doin the wifey (cringe) type homestead thing and there is just so much one can do out doors in january... thank fully seed ordering season is upon us and soon i can bitch bout bein behind once on all things outdoors once again
Ever since sophmore year began i just couldnt bothered to do anything. Schoolwork, crafts, exercise... i just dont want to do it. Apathy, i tihnk they call it.
Not in a long while, actually... having money and an easy-ass job really helps. It doesn't carry over into my free time, I have heaps of vacation, and I can usually take a trip to wherever I want. Still, I suppose anything can get oppressive after a while.
ambition is meaningless. survival and gratifiction are not. keep your glory and you can have my part too. creating and exploring are what we are born for. annonymity is freedom. gratuitous conventionality is tyranny. the avoidance of causing suffering is morality, and the reason we all need that, is because we all have to live in the kind of world we contribute, which we all do, without realizing or intending to, to creating. all you need is self dicipline and a conscience. love is nice too. and hate only overproduces adrenaline which shortens our own lives. but conscience and self dicipline to enable everyone's survival including our own, then creating and exploring to gratify and make life worth living. =^^= .../\...