Everything I need to say, I'll say it here..

You fucking hurt me bad. I have been hurt before but never like this. You meant something to me, were you aware of that? I completely fell for you. Did you care? I asked you over and over if you two were done and you looked me in the eyes and with the sweetest of replies, assured me it was over, that I was the only one. It wasn't good enough for you, I never was. Even when we were together you went to her. Little did I know that I was the other girl and that I was the problem. You say you care and I meant something, if I meant something why did you break me the way you did? Why did you lie all those times and put on a facade? Did you think I would never see through it? I did and it destroyed me. You let me fall for you and you let me fall hard. I told you I fall easy and I get hurt even easier, I asked you for one thing and you couldn't do it. You knew the one thing I feared the most and in the end its what got us. I was good to you. I never deserved it. I did everything you wanted and I didn't care because I was with you. The times we spent together were some of the best. You were funny, you were sweet and you did and said so many things that a guy has never done with me. You let us fight over you and you didn't do anything to stop it. How could you get involved with the situation you had at hand? I denied you, you persisted, finally I gave in. This is what I get. When I went through what I did, a part of me died too. You aren't understanding, it's the hardest thing I have gone through and I have been through quite a bit. You don't comprehend or you just don't care.

The things you said last night left me cold and hurt, bitter and confused. But more so alone, scared and wounded. You ripped my heart out and let it bleed through your fingers.I'll never be over you, but I will move on.

 

I would love to be able to say "I'm sorry", but I just can't. We would have never worked out as it is. I said what I said for a reason, and you know it. I did not mean to hurt you, but I had no other choice.

I don't think that you understand how important she is to me. We can spend all day together, just looking into each other's eyes. She never lies to me, she is rarely moody, and she's much better than you ever were in bed.

This is over, you have to accept it.

I don't want you to ever try to get between me and her. I plan to forget you and never see you again. My true happiness lies with my one and only love...




You can't deny it...





She's beautiful:



She will always come home to me.

 

hahaha yeahthats basically what he would say about it
you always make me laugh

 

lakeoffire i want to ask you something:
how do you alwaus end up hurt?

 

who, what, where, why and how? it hurts me to hurt anyone, but EMO IS BORING.

i'd much rather talk about puzzle joinery and engineering libraries.

even the smell of pine needles, and removing any pavement wider then a bycyle path or sidewalk and replacing it with little people sized trains propelled by stored energy or other noncombustive means.

emotional hurts in peoples lives have been coming and going in human lives as long as there have been humans, and they haven't gotten a damd bit more redeaming since the invention of the printing press, let alone the internet.

=^^=
.../\...

 

manifestation is a really neat thing...

 

i have no idea, if i knew that i dont think i would be hurt as much as i am.

 

you remind me of me, sometimes
but you're hotter

 

Im not emo, I was just venting.

 

do i really?
I dont think I am hotter than you, your one sexxxy thang!

 

You're both hot. You should tongue wrestle. And take pictures. And post them. You'll feel better.

No really.

 

It is about time this man had a good idea, no?

 

psssht why didnt i think of that? clearly that will solve everything!
hahah

 

You are 20 years old.

In 5 years you will hardly care or think about whatever this situation is.

It has no bearing on your life. Not a factor in any way.

Yes it is EMO.

 

Whether or not it will have any bearing, she's still hurting right now. Apparently she put a lot into the relationship and the dude screwed her over by cheating. Happened to me.
I'm over it, but it did hurt for a while.
I wouldn't say it's EMO, though it is emotional.
She deserves her period of mourning and venting.

 

thank you wanderingsoul



and unkown american, your right i am only 20 and most relationships at this age wont havea bearing in five years. But this one will, there was much more to the relationship than what meets the surface. If it was him just cheating I could get over it, im accustomed to it. but its not, and there was more.

 

i'd leave her if i were you. i mean, i dont know her personally, but looking at that picture, i'd say she's a real bitch.

and i know looks aren't everything, but man is she a dog.....

 

Right there lies your problem luv.

Stop belittling yourself and stand up for what you deserve. No woman should ever be "accustomed" to anything of that nature, and if you are then it's your own fault. If you expect to be hurt than it will happen. You should expect to be treated like a queen and accept nothing else.

 

I was re reading this and other posts of lakeoffire to see if I missed anything here.

Then I looked at your blog posting. Now I understand.

Your posting here was not clear of what was really going on. It sounded like another bad relationship story. We have all had them and they hurt but we do go on. There was much more to the story here.

After reading your blog post it is clear I misunderstood what was going on.

However, now that I know. I am sorry that I did not see the whole situation.

How could I from this post? Or for that matter the the last week of multiple postings of vague emotional feelings from lakeoffire.

How can you expect others to understand if you do not post the whole story or include important details?

Regardless, you are stronger than you realize.

We are never given a circumstance that we can not go through.

You have my best wishes in a very hard situation.

I was not trying to be insensitive.

Wishing you all the best.