Hoping for some insight

I don't really know how to start here. I feel like an old, lost, heavy soul. And have for a long time now. I really don't know what to do anymore, not that I ever did.

I was hoping to maybe have a reading/some insight into:

1) Past lives, if I really do have a old soul, or maybe depression/mental illness.

2) A friend of mine from 3 years ago. He's the only person I've really been like-minded with, we were inside eachothers heads, there was something spirtual between us. And it is tough when you are without someone you can really relate to. We were driven really far apart, I've been trying to get into contact with him, but it's been troublesome. Will I ever be able to be in contact with him again? Will we ever be friends again? There hasn't been a day in three years that I haven't thought about him.

3) If not, will i ever have someone like that again?

4) My direction. Not umcommon at all for a teenager, know. But I am so lost. I'm really just hoping to get some writing published, so i won't have to work and deal with the real world

Thanks for any help!

 

Hhhhmmm.... I looked at your pictures. It seems you've been dealing with emotional issues for a really long time now. It makes you feel old to have to endure that. I think you could be an empath. You pick up a lot of what's going on with people and maybe even animals around you. When you do that, it effects your emotions and sometimes it's hard to tell what is yours and what's someone else's. (I'm an empath...) I can tell when someone is thinking about me or when someone needs someone to talk to.

My guess is that your cousin was also an empath, and I'm sure he is someone you've spent several lives with. Your bond is strong because you two are kind of "life partners"... you do this together all the time. The seperation may be a part of your growth process this lifetime. You need to learn a bit of independence from one another. I'm sure he's missing you, too.

I think you'll be in contact soon with him. Like within the next month.... I think you are very aware of the people you need in your life, so you will meet several people who you already "know" and have an immediate connection with them. Follow your instincts.

Keep writing. Perserverance will help you through. (I've been writing since I was 14, and I've been trying to get published for quite awhile. I've had minimal luck, but I've not given up.) Again, "dealing with the real world" is often hard for an empath. You need a quiet job with few people around you.

 

Thank you so much for your words. I can't tell you how much it means to me. This definetly makes alot of sense to me.

I know very little about psychic things. But after I posted this, I felt this intrustion (i don't really know what to call it.) I've never felt anything like this. It was like an intense intrusion.

Maybe it was someone trying to read me? I really don't know


Thanks again

 

Or possibly someone trying to contact you. But it wasn't me, since I just saw your note a short time ago, and I really don't know either. But Des10e is right, you definitely have some strong psychic sensitivity. There's a reason for that and for your mental connection with your friend, and you can definitely expect more of that sort of thing in your life. And keep writing--make it a work of love, and edit the hell out of it until it expresses your truth and becomes something you would want to find on the bookstore shelves and treasure.

 

That is very nice to hear. You guys are amazing, thanks so much

 

Perhaps you were feeling me.... I don't know. If you ever get the chance, have a reiki healing (even long-distance), or an aura cleansing. It's wild. Most people are said not to feel anything. I felt very tingly, calm and floaty.

I know this guy on myspace who does what he calls a spirit cleansing. He removes negative entities and parasites that "latch on to the soul". It's awesome.... my mind was so clear during the process. I never knew I could feel so "renewed". It was amazing....

PS: You're very welcome.

 

Maybe that's what it was. That aura cleansing sounds wonderful.

I have a myspace, i would love to maybe look at that guys page, if you're ok with sharing it.

If not, that's totally cool

 

I'm avoiding mysapce right now, but I will probably be back on it by next week, and I would love to look up the guy for you.... actually, I can help a bit now, I think. There is a forum on there: http://www.myspace.com/loveandlight It's ran by a gilr named Danielle Lynn. If you PM her she can get you in touch with Shawn. He's the spirit cleanser. In fact, he's probably in her top friends. He's from Ohio, like me.

 

Aww, it's unfortunately not working for me.

Thank you anyway

 

Okay, well, I'll have to look up his page when I return to myspace. But I will get it to you.

 

Wonderful. Thank you.

No rush though

 

Will PM you his myspace address...

 

Hi there.

When I read you message, i get the feeling of exhaustion. I am a believer in reincarnation & I believe that some of us come back with heavy hearts & souls. I suppose if you experienced a hard past life, it greatly inhibits you in this life to an extent. There are some great alternative healers out there who can work with clearing negative energy (past & present) and it leaves you feeling lighter & more in tune with yourself.
I see you have a beautiful nature, but are constantly washed with an air of heavy sadness? I feel that maybe darling, you need to give yourself some TLC. Find something that allows you to breathe & relax internally. Youre writing is your outlet, your window to expression, and this is very important, it allows you to clear your emotional weight & allows others an insight to a very wise & insightful soul. Perservere with your writing, and ask for help (god, goddess, angels, universe, whatever you like) just put your thoughts up there and say "please help me with......"

What you put out to the world, is usually what you get back......all the people on here have offered you fantastic advice, see what you can find that works for you and once feeling a little better, I'm positive you'll start to attract special Long term friends into your life

Love & light
lexi

 

Thank you so much for the wonderful insight. You guys are all amazing

 

I've been in contact with my spirit guide lately. Well, at least i think i have been. I question my sanity constantly ;p

I feel really overwhelmed from the contact, so i cut it off pretty quickly. I feel like i'm dissappointing 'her' because i cut it off. 'She' seems really lovely and sweet. Like 'she' knows to be a certain way because i'm so paranoid ;p

I would love if you guys could maybe tell me some more about 'her'?

 

Oh God, dear...it's good for some of us to question our sanity sometimes, so we can bring our rational minds along on this journey...lovely and sweet: you said it yourself...and yet you doubt and question. Don't feel bad for that--she knows you need to work through this. Don't worry about disappointing her--she knows, and she's only letting you feel her disappointment so you know she wants you to make more progress. You have a true angel working with you.

It's okay to be paranoid, dear--it's okay to be whatever you are. Relax and accept your weaknesses--and you'll find your strengths. Your angel is more patient than you can possibly fathom. When you're ready for more, she'll be there waiting, with more love than you can know.

 

Oh, wow. I cried when i read this, thank you so much for your help

 

I was trying to connect with her again, and i asked her for a sign. Because i've read on another thread about some people asking their guides for signs. I didn't get anything. Maybe i'm not ready or i was doing something wrong?

Just trying to make some progress, slowly...

 

You didn't get anything? How long did you wait? Most often I've found that the things I ask for from my guides come more slowly than I expect them to. Frequently I need to think back to what I asked for before I recognize they've answered my request.

Here's another thought: Instead of asking for a sign, ask for something that will bring you progress on your spiritual path.

 

I'll try that. Thanks for your advice