Hi guys. This is my first post. I am 20 years old now, I just turned 20 a month ago. I had my first encounter with Lucy about 3 months ago, and I have tripped 5 times now. I am going to be taking a long break from Lucy, perhaps maybe a year off. My last trip was THE most incredible experience of my life. The idea of "letting it be" became so apparent and obvious to me (I really began to understand this concept during my 3rd trip). I was walking otuside at around 11 PM and was strolling around in my neighborhood with a friend of mine who was also on Lucy. We stopped for 5 minutes and didn't move. We just let everything come to us. We paid attention to everything, all the street noises all the wildlife that was around us. At this point in time, the lucy began to really kick in. MY friend and I were communicating with earth and maybe, God. We were literally the only ones walking around HOUSTON, TX at this point in time at night. Even if we werent the only ones walking, We felt as though we were the only ones taking the time and appreciating nature at the hour, and honestly, we probably were. While we walked, the wind and trees responded to us. a feeling that no words can truly describe, but i felt as though a 6th sense was activated because i was not letting my will control my thoughts or actions. Essentially for the first time, i had let my ego go. Throughout this walk, we picked up leaves, touched trees, hugged bushes, (i can assure u that i am far from a hippy), and just appreciated nature in general. For the first time in my life, i was appreciating nature for how beautiful it was and how many things it provided us. Because of this appreciation i felt as though i was a kid again. I felt reborn. I felt free. I truly let my mind and guard down throughout this trip. I would be crying one second, and then the next i would be rolling on the ground laughing. I was crying because i didnt understand why people had to be so hostile towards each other when there are so many things to be happy about in life. I was crying because I thought that I myself was selfish for wanting to reach a state of pleasure through a "drug". I was crying because people put up fronts. Letting your mind free allows you to appreciate every emotion and flourish from it, even the most intense sadness. After about an hour of walking and 'communicating' with nature my friend and i decided to lay down and look at the sky. Let me explain what this communication was: Every street we walked on, we felt as though the canopy of leaves were the eyes of nature and because we loved it, it was loving us back. The wind was reassuring us that we were controlling all of it. The night was beautiful, there was a full moon and the clouds milky and wispy. When I looked at the sky, I felt as though i was communicating with the moon. the moon had never ever looked so brilliant and beautiful to me in my life. I felt as though I was a child of the moon. The clouds began to move around the moon as if the clouds were the moons voice, the moon was communicating to me by moving the clouds. It was as though i was controlling the clouds with my head, i didnt will it, but through not willing, i was making the clouds move to my thoughts ( I know that was an etremely confusing sentence). I also felt as though nature was trying to tell me just how powerful each person is if they choose to harness it and embrace it. Nature was showing me my potential. OR was nature just trying to show me how much it appreciated me and my friend for actually appreciating nature that night? And who knows whether or not it was a hallucination or whether it was reality. What is reality anyways? As far as im concerned, the clouds really were shifting physically. Interestingly enough, our cloud watching was broken by police officers who were very weirded out by 2 young adults laying on someone's front lawn at midnight. The police officers violated us in a way that i had never ever been violated in my life. Though we didn't get arrested, my freedom felt extremely violated and i lost my concentration and communication with nature because I was anger and i was thinking about ME and the threat to MY freedom. Afterwards, all i could think about was trying to get some pot and alleviate stress. Essentially I became absorbed in myself at this time. IMmediately after the altercation with the cops, the sky began to cry. It was raining. It was as though nature was trying to tell me that I lost to the cops because i let them reinforce and rebuild my ego. Or maybe nature was crying because the machine had won again against 2 kids that were actually appreciating life for the right reasons. I truly believe that this night's weather was controlled by our actions. Ive had "kaleidoscopic" hallucinations before and i can differentiate hallucinations from reality. The Cloud shifting was reality. THe wind that i thought was controlling was all happening. This was the most beautiful experience of my life. I have never felt so much love before in my life. Not from my parents, my friends, my brother. I felt so much love from nature and the spirit of the earth that night because i gave it so much love. Take this for whatever it's worth
I'm so happy you shared this with us. It's so beautiful and a happy tear escaped one of my eyes You send out pure love into the universe and you are always gonna get love back and it's going to be so much greater that you feel that you need to send MORE love out and so on and so forth...
Wow, what an inspiring trip report. I'm so glad you have joined us here on these forums. Your experience is exactly what LSD is all about.
after a long night of tripping i was sitting on the couch staring at the carpet. i was imagining two lizards in battle. it was a projection from my mind - i was in some way controling what i saw. it looked so real - what a wonderful experience.
Ah yes the carpet moves around but dont waste all of your trip wondering how and why theres so much more to explore
To me, this experience never ended. I understand everything you are talking about and agree that this is what hallucinogens are all about. My last acid trip was 1 year ago christmas eve and my life has been exactly the way you described ever since. Let me assure you that this is only the very beginning of your realizations. Your world will continue to expand into a magical place if you continue on the enlightened path.
Well, tell me if you could hallucinate whatever you want you wouldn't just hallucinate a better life and say screw reality? Nah jking, but my only point I'm making here is - If i could actually SEE what I want from my imagination in REAL LIFE, hell yeah I'd do it (even on LSD). I think you misunderstood him, unless you can usually see in real life what you imagine (which would be problematic huh?) I get that feeling EVERY time I trip and it really ruins it for me. Beautiful story though, glad to see you got the right meanings down. Hope you found that MJ later on in the night too (probably the only idea you had that contradicted that feeling huh? But pot don't count anyway in my book ). Definitely Erowid material, you should consider submitting.
yes, that is my point... that what you see is in your control because it is your imagination - including what you see in the clouds most people just sit back and enjoy the visuals without realizing that they are in control of them in some way or a part of them in some way. in other words most people dont have control over their imagination. when tripping, most people let their imagination get the best of them. you are trying to be a smart ass but i dont think you really appreciate what it is that we are talking about here.
I disagree, I don't believe that what he saw/ experienced was all in his head. Why would this be problematic. This is permanent reality for some people and at first it seems problematic, but then you begin to understand how your thoughts infinately manifest in external reality. To quote Muhammad “He who knoweth his own self, knoweth God” and “Verily your deeds will be brought back to you, as if you yourself were the creator of your own punishment” I completely agree with these statements. If any words ring true to this reality, these words do.
i am saying that if the clouds were actually moving then it could have been his imagination moving them. not necessarily all in his head. either he was moving them or he was just feeling a strong connection to the movement of them. some believe that reality is an illusion. even the very real to the touch could just be a figment of your imagination.
OH I just read your post at several different angles of thought so to speak. At first I thought you were still in partial objection, now I see you are completely agreeing with me in a subtle way. This certainly ties in to questioning the validity of this reality, just remember that it is the only one we have at this very moment so live it and live it well. This means something different to everyone but to me it means appreciating everything at all times if possible.
I really enjoyed the story and I chose not to comment on the other replies, but I the weather corresponding to the trip seems to happen to me more than once. I read a carlos casteneda book which talked about "being one with the wind" and random stuff like that but a few things from that book seem to seep out of my mind during trips. Last winter I took mushrooms for my second time ever, although I had taken acid like 5-6 times by this point. I took around 2.5 grams of the shit and smoked a ton of Maui Wowwie. My trip was pretty typical but one part gave me the chills. I was walking around my street with my friend who decided to stick to pot for the night and we were being loud and dancing around. A strong wind was driving us mad, it made it impossible to smoke and walk at the same time. I than realized that if we walked in a certain way and were silent, our actions only being those necessary for us, than the wind would subside. We tried it for a few minutes and it worked perfectly, the strong winds died down. My friend, being a great believer of many super-natural incidents was freaked out so I decided to show him that it was not true. Our whispers turned into jovial shouting once again and once i took out a cigarette and a lighter to light it the wind blew the damn thing out of my mouth. We than proceeded to run inside scared as shit for whatever harm we may have done. The strange part is although this coincidence worked perfectly in this setting, it would happen a few more times. A few days of inebriation due only to psychedelics and pot yielded the same results. It seemed as if my thoughts and actions had a purpose and disturbed nothing that I would be able to temporarily stop bad weather. For me the weather does not react based on my thoughts, it more just lets me through every once and a while. Ill tell you this, it sure gets creepy on some late nights.
I'm not sure whether or not the clouds shifting was my imagination, but for sure the wind was not my imagination. Again let me reiterate that I have tripped acid multiple times before this time, and one trip I was almost "taunting" the acid in me to ellicit extreme hallucinations. I was wondering what all the fuss about kaleidoscope shit was. I was listening to Dark side of the Moon, and I realized that i was trying to hard to hallucinate, that i was trying to force my imagination to create a different reality. At that point in time, I decided to just completely relax and be a part of the moment. *CHA CHING* do da do do... the intro of Money came on and the whole room became a moving circus. This I know I was hallucinating because even though I wasn't TRYING to hallucinate, I was still controlling it. The idea of not trying yet still controlling is something that is very difficult mindset to get in unless I am on acid. I could feel the acid in my brain and I was telling myself, "Let's see what you can do" Suddenly the most intense neon green pervaded my vision and a spectacular world of bright colors and geometry dominated my vision. Another spectacular incident that happened during this acid trip is when i realized that everyone in their own right is God. Not god in the way society perceives god, but a god in the way that we are the controller of our own fate and our reality. This feeling of omnipotence is something that I have felt everytime that I have taken acid. In the room, there were 3 people that were not on acid and 2 people that were. I asked all of them what GOd meant to them. 2 of the people that were not on acid were catholics. I am not an atheist but an agnostic. I never try to judge people for their religious beliefs; however, these specific opinions triggered incredible intellectual thought for me- I realized that accepting the idea of God automatically makes you subservient to an entity that you don't even know exists. BY deconstructing this view, you are freeing your mind and you are allowing yourself to become an immortal. Immortal not in the sense where u are able to escape death, but immortal in the sense where u are able to elongate time by appreciating every second and truly LIVING. I go to an Ivy (in no way am i bragging, I am just trying to express my grief) league school and the high pressure environment of obtaining wealth has blinded the majority of students here and it is honestly a vibe that is contagious around school. It stresses everyone out, socially and academically. I honestly feel at times as though I am "dead" when I am going through the normal routines of school. I feel less and less "grounded" to myself and i become more and more absorbed into society's bullshit and nonsense. I was once an extrovert and I can't help but to turn more and more into a hermit. Since this summer I have dabbled with meditation, and meditating has become harder and harder for me at school this year because of all the distracting thoughts. I am an amateur musician and I am very very serious about pursuing music as a profession and when I was on acid, I was playing better and more free than i have ever played in my life. In addition, my synesthesia (sensations triggered by non-related senses. example: "Hearing" or "Tasting" blue) heigtened and has since been much stronger even while sober. When I was jamming with a group on lucy, I came to a profound conclusion - Jamming and improvising within a band setting is hoenstly one of the most enlightening metaphors of life. IN order to make the group achieve and create the most beautiful music that the group of individuals is able to create, all in the group must be 100% confident in their ability, and by confident, I mean having no fear (something that i was able to achieve while tripping LSD, not shrooms), while also being 110% humble in their abilities. During the jam, we had about 30 minutes of straight grooving, and then i suddenly thought, "wow we are really good! I'm really good. I should solo" AT this point in time, the vibe (the ability to perceive vibes is so much stronger on acid) fell apart and the groove fell apart because I no longer LOVED the vibe and groove, i was FORCING it with my ego and trying to impress everyone. I try to live my life 100% confident yet 110% humble at all times now. HOpe this post was important to someone.
I personally love your posts I believe in God and Love, it's what we are and is all there is. I didnt use to think this way, but I FELT Her in this case during an amazing mushroom trip and I have no doubts to whether is real or not. The feeling I had was the one of realizing something I always knew, but had sinked in the back of my mind. I spent hours crying on how much love there is and feeling sad for the people who cant feel it, even though I was one of those people and then I died, because well it was too much and that was beautiful in its own way. I've never done acid though, but I plan to soon. I'm just happy you are sharing your experiences with us.
therin lies the flaw. its not about controlling as much as it is about not controlling, which is where most people go wrong; forgetting/not realizing that they have total control. so nobody is convinced that they aren't in control of their imagination, they just fail to realize that the most personal parts of their trips are a fabrication of their imagination in the first place.... subsequently letting their imagination remain uncontrolled.. the role that the lsd plays is obvious, stop trying to be a smart ass.
Nice posts. Sort of related... Bob Weir controlls the weather at shows man. I have seen lightning and heard thunder to the tunes of the dead. Hard to explain, but completely amazing
